More than ever we must research and investigate these commonly used words-Sensuality/Sexuality- and really start to approach them from a point of understanding what the mere applications of these words used by the masses everyday is really producing. The things that our parents couldn't tell us because they didn't know either.

1. This Black Woman’s Sen/Sex-U-aLiTy
by
Atyeb Ba Atum Re
“sSshhhh, cum closer whispered Nakash from behind the sSa-creed tree. The very
smell of his breath made everything in me awaken and for the first time in my creation I
felt a strange heat vibrate between my thighs as his tongue seemed to flicker down
there in such a way that made me SENSE the auras of everything around me like I had
never EXPERIENCED them before.
Even though I was screaming--I liked it, I liked it, I LIKED IT!!!—and then there was a
hot liquid that I felt him sucking from my body down there that I did not know existed
and . . . I LIKED IT. When he was done he gazed up at me and then . . . LICKED HIS
LIPS. He put his mouth on mine and let me sample a taste of what the liquid he had
sucked from my body tasted like and . . . MMMMmmm—I LIKED IT.
Then he taught me how to do him with my mouth and I put my mouth on his and let
some of his liquid spill into his mouth from mine—he wrapped his tongue around mine—
we both swallowed those mingled liquids and . . . together--WE LIKED IT.”
Paa Nazdurt-Raptivist Atyeb Ba Atum RE
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2. SENSUAL
sen·su·al [sen-shoo-uhl]
adjective
1.
pertaining to, inclined to, or preoccupied with the gratification of the senses or appetites; carnal;
fleshly.
2.
lacking in moral restraints; lewd or unchaste.
3.
arousing or exciting the senses or appetites.
4.
worldly; materialistic; irreligious.
5.
of or pertaining to the senses or physical sensation; sensory
Synonyms
1. Sensual, sensuous, voluptuous refer to experience through the senses. Sensual refers, often
unfavorably, to the enjoyments derived from the senses, especially from the gratification or
indulgence of physical appetites: a sensual delight in eating; sensual excesses. Sensuous refers,
favorably or literally, to what is experienced through the senses: sensuous impressions; sensuous
poetry. Voluptuous implies the luxurious gratification of sensuous or sensual desires: voluptuous
joys; voluptuous beauty. See also carnal. 2. lascivious.
To make the attempt to write about Black Feminine Sen/Sex-U-aLiTy is no easy task.
The definition of sensual is given first because little black girls are not shown this
definition first as they began to experience the AWAKENING of their Feminine SENSES
after the first seductive touch from anyone. I know I wasn’t shown the definition of
sensual nor did I even think to investigate the word at all when I began to experience
my inner Senses that whomever IT or They were had created (made) us to have.
All my momma told me was “don’t play with the boys.” So, I didn’t. I guess the girls
that I hung around had been told the same thing. To prepare ourselves for that first kiss
that we knew and longed to experience someday, we practiced with ice cubes and with
each other. We even critiqued each other’s technique and of course one thing lead to
another. After all momma said, “Don’t play with the boys.” So---We didn’t.
There is absolutely no way to describe what we each felt because we all felt something
differently, yet, We liked it---I liked it.
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3. Being sensual made me feel ultra feminine. I felt extremely soft, playful and imitative. It
made me feel like I was a grown woman deserving of some young boy’s or grown man’s
attention and Affection. I did not know that a great responsibility came with awakening
those senses and for sure, I would not let my momma know. No one informed me or
my girlfriends that beyond the fact of having a menstrual cycle, other physical and
psychological doors had been flung open as well. The thing that was devastating the
most was that there weren’t any passage of rites into womanhood ceremonies for us.
Hell, I thought being voluptuous meant a sistah had big breast and a big butt. I’ve even
noticed how some people prepare their food and can make it look so damn good on
their plate that I wanted to eat their food instead of my own.
Being sensual has nothing to do with ethnicity because we are dealing with the Mind
and what our Senses experience when they are noticing what is going on in their IN-
vironment. I think we would have to be able to break down what the universe or the
Supreme It is feeling when It is being sensual with itself in order to bring about life. If
our feminine ancestors first learned about what it was to be sensual from the Lord God
or Gods in the garden of Genesis then we know what is recorded that happened next.
The Black woman taught her man how to experience what it felt like to become a
sensual being. In this context I mean experiencing the awakening of our senses.
When I know that I am being photographed, I feel sensual. What that means is that I
immediately bring in the feminine energy of all of my ancient mothers which makes me
first dress accordingly and allow them to express their poses through me.
SENSUALITY
sen·su·al·i·ty [sen-shoo-al-i-tee]
noun, plural -ties.
1.
sensual nature: the sensuality of Keats's poetry.
2.
unrestrained indulgence in sensual pleasures.
3.
lewdness; unchastity.
The Supreme Reality that has many names always takes a step by step approach to
everything that it does. It is a very SENSE-ual approach, an approach that is an
unrestrained indulgence in the pleasure of making life. So as we investigate the so
called defining elements of what some being who didn’t even make himself pens to
elements intermingling with each other as this or that, we must question how they came
to know what this or that truly meant. Especially when labeling something beyond their
comprehension as being lewd or unchaste.
I say this because what we call nature or life, is being sensual and expressing its
sensuality all of the time, right before our very eyes. During the ancient of days it is
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4. recorded that life would always continue to do everything in cycles. Now that I am
older, I can say that my sensuality expresses itself in cycles. Feminine sensuality is
affected by the penetrating vibrations of the moon and the SUN. Like it—or not.
When a sistah is feeling sensual and expressing her sensuality, she should know that
she is the keeper, protectress and nurturer of something that has been entrusted
divinely in her keeping. She should feel that it is her duty to know what she is giving up
every time she has sex and with whom she is having sex with. It goes beyond looking
enticingly irresistible to men. No one told me that it all begins in the BRAIN. Education
is paramount. Genetics is something that should be learned alongside the importance
of having our first menstrual cycle. This would help us as sensual beings to practice
purposeful restraint and value our ability to be chaste women. In my opinion this would
return the aura of dark mysticism to our femininity and make us alluring, and desirable
beings to our men again.
~ To be sensual, I think, is to respect and rejoice in the force of life, of life itself, and
to be present in all that one does, from the effort of loving to the making of bread.
~ James Arthur Baldwin
SEX
In biology, sex is a process of combining and mixing genetic traits, often resulting in the
specialization of organisms into a male or female variety (each known as a sex). Sexual
reproduction involves combining specialized cells (gametes) to form offspring that inherit traits
from both parents. Gametes can be identical in form and function (known as isogametes), but in
many cases an asymmetry has evolved such that two sex-specific types of gametes
(heterogametes) exist: male gametes are small, motile, and optimized to transport their genetic
information over a distance, while female gametes are large, non-motile and contain the nutrients
necessary for the early development of the young organism.
An organism's sex is defined by the gametes it produces: males produce male gametes
(spermatozoa, or sperm) while females produce female gametes (ova, or egg cells); individual
organisms which produce both male and female gametes are termed hermaphroditic. Frequently,
physical differences are associated with the different sexes of an organism; these sexual
dimorphisms can reflect the different reproductive pressures the sexes experience
Experiencing my senses lead me to the gate of wanting to engage in SEX. Sensual,
sensuality and SEX are friends of each other. Our ancient ancestors programmed them
within us to be experienced together. They did have a manner in which we were to
experience these happenings, however the Lord God (s) slipped and had something
else in MIND. After saying this, it goes without saying that everyone who Plays around
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5. with awakening their senses becomes prime candidates of wanting to experience the
thrill of what it feels like to engage in SEX.
We don’t have sex we have babies, we have desires, wishes, wants and dreams. We
engage in Sex which requires us to Perform certain Acts in order to heighten what our
senses have not felt and/or didn’t know existed. Truthfully speaking, when I had my first
sexual encounter with a male, it was not enjoyable accept for the part where I knew that
I had something so valuable between my legs that he wanted, that he was even willing
to crawl to me for it. I thought to myself, wow! The power of the pussy was made plain
to me in that very moment. However, I still had not thought to investigate the meaning
of these different stages of awakening my senses. If my mother would have told me
that I was genetically mixing my ancestral lineage with that sexual counterpart—maybe,
just maybe—I wouldn’t have liked it as much as I did when I finally experienced sex with
someone who knew what the hell they were doing. I did however, began to research
the various positions and mantras of SEX. Why? Power!!!
Genetics! Sex! We have got to start thinking about what we are doing ourselves
genetically and stop making the vibration of love our scapegoats. If it feels good---don’t
necessarily mean Do it!
Earlier I mentioned the words, Softer, Playful and Imitative. Think about it. Doesn’t this
sound Primal? (A question for my sis-STARS)
Our sensuality becomes very primal when we are engaging in sex, especially if we don’t
know any of the more refined sciences of sex as being a healing tool. We just get down
and funky when we get loose. I like that sometimes. However, we must restrain
ourselves from always experiencing our sensuality on that level. Why? Because at that
level we forget about the respawn-sibilities of what we’re doing and what we are co-
creating with the pre-programmed wiring surgically manipulated within us. (The medical
experiments of our ancient ancestors)
Sexuality
sex·u·al·i·ty [sek-shoo-al-i-tee or, especially Brit., seks-yoo-]
noun
1.
sexual character; possession of the structural and functional traits of sex.
2.
recognition of or emphasis upon sexual matters.
3.
involvement in sexual activity.
4.
an organism's preparedness for engaging in sexual activity.
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6. I now must accept the reality that whenever I engage in sex, I am nothing more than an
organism preparing myself to sensuously engage in and perform certain sexual acts
that become expressions of an activity that I Like from time to time.
In conclusion, do we do ourselves an injustice when we try to approach the subject of
Sensuality as Sexuality first?
Paa Nazdurt-Raptivist Atyeb Ba Atum Re
Aka Net-Hetep Ankh Anunu Ta’Nesert
Formerly known artistically as Ayaba (wife-uvh-tha-king)
The Aspiring Goddess
August 21, 2011
~ Money, it turned out, was exactly like sex, you thought of nothing else if you didn't
have it and thought of other things if you did. ~ James Arthur Baldwin
RBG WORLDWIDE 1 NATION
A communiversity where we honor our ancestors daily through diligent studying and
application.
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