1. THE ULTIMATE TRUTH OF MY LIFE! Words Composed by: Raj K Pandey, MBS, MA rajkpandey2000@yahoo.com rajkpandey2000@gmail.com rajkpandey2000@hotmail.com Jawalakhel, Lalitpur GPO BOX: 19862,Kathmandu, Nepal Mobile: 977-01-98510 86884 Mobile: 977-01-9841 813529 Date: 10:00pm, 30 May 2010 (Sun)

2. I reached to the east and I reached to the west; I reached everywhere for the sake of survival; When I reviewed my life in a point of time; Suddenly, I realized where I have exactly reached, at last!

3. When I used to dream during my innocent childhood; When I was in unconditional love with my near one and the dear one; When I was in a total freedom of choice amid the nature; I naively used to thought, oh! Life is really a heaven! But, when the course of my life changed; When I felt extreme lonely among the mob of the people; I thought, I had had acquired everything; But, what exactly I have acquired in my real life. I was merely survived for an elusive life. I have lost several things in my life; I have lost inner peace and the happiness of my soul; My precious onetime life has been vanished into the elusion; For the sake of running behind the mirage but to get nothing; I have lost everything, which my life had naturally given to me.

4. I have completely forgotten to happily survive my life; As I have unnecessarily worried and focused to learn how to survive; I don't know where my natural happiness has gone, forever; I have totally forgotten to laugh and smile!

5. While running for the sake of getting physical comforts; I have completely forgotten to live my natural life! I might have been noticed as an achiever for the outsiders; Others might have considered me as a great persona;

6. But, while I thoroughly scrutinized myself from the bottom of my soul; Suddenly, I realized: what I have exactly achieved in the total race of my life? And, where I have eventually reached in the course of my life!

7. Composed by: Raj K Pandey, MBS, MA [email_address] rajkpandey2000@gmail.com rajkpandey2000@hotmail.com Jawalakhel, Lalitpur, GPO BOX: 19862, Kathmandu, NEPAL Mobile: 977-01-98510 86884 Mobile: 977-01-9841 813529 Date: 10:00pm, 30 May 2010 (Sunday)

8. Note for Discussion: This write-up was prepared for the speak of mind at 10:00pm on 30 May 2010 (Sunday) to creatively use the load-shedding time in home, keeping in mind - NRN, for Global Nepalese Language Speaking Communities, Organized by NRN, Boston, USA. I had intensively discussed/interacted with several retired Lahure communities, who had spent energetic young blood in abroad and eventually returned to their homelands, simply to wait for death. I noticed them lamenting for loosing some beautiful aspects in life: loneliness feeling due to lack of love/family, and identity crisis in abroad, albeit they were financially secure for whole life! This write-up is targeted, especially for those: A professional, who achieves career height, but eventually retires at 60; A businessman, who works for 24/07, but finally collapses; A beautiful/handsome wo/man, who refuses/ignores the intimate love/marriage proposals, but ultimately feels extremely lonely, when the wrinkles starts on her/his face and s/he is sick; A politician, who uses hanky-panky to gain power/authority, but ultimately returns to the ground reality; An intellectual, who has enough information in the mind but merely for the sake of knowledge; A NRN, who abandons homeland, but mentally and emotionally in own country and psychologically facing identify crisis; and All the people, who are surviving in nostalgic life after 60 years! Composed by: Raj K Pandey, MBS, MA (10:00pm at home, 30 May 2010 Sunday) Jawalakhel, Lalitpur, GPO Box: 19862, Kathmandu, Nepal,Mobile: 977-01-98510-86884/9841-813529 rajkpandey2000@yahoo.com, [email_address] ,rajkpandey2000@gmail.com