" My Quiet Soul Needs Me " Written & Created By : C .Adams

1. “My Quiet Soul Needs Me!”
By Carrie Adams on Saturday, April 11, 2009

2. “My Quiet Soul Needs Me!”
The lingering moments each day and before I
realize months and years have passed along.
“I’m not preoccupied with all too much.”
Most of the time I feel as though I am drifting.
“There is this floating feeling and only when I
am without pain.”

3. As I have grown and matured and I am just shy of being 50
yrs. young, I have noticed my obvious quiet soul.
" I could be surrounded by hundreds , dozens or thousands
of people and just stay put in one spot or revere around
and through the crowds and not speak a word ... not a
sound !”

4. “Surely, life encompasses many
sounds ... some sounds that we all
cannot tolerate.”
"Have you ever driven just one day in your
travels and heard nothing but absolute
silence?”

5. It is somewhat sad to be unable to control the
wide ranges of sounds that occur each day and
appreciating both interior and exterior silence
seems to be unheard of and not welcomed.

6. “I have a lot to say.”
I’m not certain if it is because of the
challenges, the diseases, the
unpredictable changes, the emptiness, the
alienation, the unanswered inquiries, the
estrangement, the foreseen present etc….

7. What I have been
more comfortable
with lately is my
quiet soul needs
me!

8. I may not give a grimace, an eye clue, a shoulder
shiver, a hug, or even a greeting or closing.
I am not being mean.
I am enlisting myself into an uncompromising
course that I am allowing God to do his will in
me and his will for me.
My quiet soul needs me is as simple as I can
express it.

9. The energy I use and at times or misuse to actively
talk, to listen, to lower an item from a higher shelf.
No one could comprehend this unless they too are
challenged with this disease .
Even when I turn around in many circles each
day in my house while I scratch my temple
being slightly dazed about " what am I doing
now " is said aloud and I have to
stop, sometimes sit down .

10. Natural events such as the phone
rings and I know personally that I
have done my fair share of
activities and my body is no longer
willing to do anything more .
Having multiple sclerosis, which affects every part of
one's central nervous system, I do get exhausted easily.
I came to this conclusion:
“My Quiet Soul Needs Me.”

11. What a test that my Lord
Jesus has given to me.
I am not dragging around “insignificant”
people, memories, errands, chit –
chats, opinions, options, suggestions, avenues, b
yways – highways, circle
drives, ceremonies, holidays, accidents, characte
rs, love, flirts, smirks, NOTHING any more.

12. Just nearly 1 month
ago, my primary doctor
said; it is time to take care
of you and to enjoy you!
Do most physicians speak
warmly to their patients?
Most of mine have.
For those that have not I make the
decision that they will be removed
from my care team.

13. They are in their professions (running a business making a living) and I as a patient have my
personal business to track my well being and
options for health management with the best
choices available so I must be honest with myself
and tackle the challenges with a positive attitude
even if there are adjustments to the names of care
providers over time.

14. My children’s names are
their own for their entire
lifetime
Thank You God.
I gave them their names.

15. They may not even know my full name.
If anything should happen to me (we are prepared
as best one can be) we know what steps will be
taken to reach them.
I am having a little more
forgetfulness (a common reality
with multiple sclerosis) but the
name of my children will never be
forgotten.

16. “My Quiet Soul Needs Me.”
"Where do you think you
would have to go if your soul
was counting on you to pay
close attention and set aside
life’s distractions?”
We are not creatures meant
to be alone, not even die
alone.

17. What, where, when, wh
y, and how do you
expect to know all that
God has placed inside
of you if you were
grooming the exterior
side on a full time basis
throughout your entire
life span?

18. The interior house needs
cleansing, review, regrou
p, renewal etc...
"Would you know how long
to interview yourself in
front of God sitting across
from you?”

19. "Should you keep on hand ; a warmer
for blankets and hot pads if you reveal
the coldest hurts done by others to
you in your life and hope that God
mends and sound proofs those deep –
deep screams of HELP…. "PLEASE
HELP ME!"

20. "What kind of currency would it
take to keep the appointment with
God even if you lost your
sight, your limbs, your voice, your
hair, your hearing, your
direction, your associations, your
memories, or your loved ones?"

21. “My Quiet Soul Needs Me.”
Maybe ... there is so
much to say and very
little time to say it!
Sounds good – you too have heard this
before.

22. Can you hold on for a second
~ be patient ~.
“My Quiet Soul Needs Me!”
It will certainly be up to the Lord
Jesus if we can see each other again.

23. For now…
I will lay my head down, brace my body
among many various pillows for comfort and
speak gently to my soul that I am grateful for
all that; God has done for me and all that he
has yet to do for me.

24. If you see me and I do not look…
I am not looking.
If you call me and I do not hear you ….
I am not listening.
If you touch me and have genuine love
for me ~ hugs can take me through
another day ~.

25. “My Quiet Soul Needs Me!”
Written By: Carrie Adams
April 11, 2009
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