1. THIS IS THE BOOK OF THE LIFE STORY OF MONQUE YOUNG WHEN SHE WAS
GROWING UP.WELL I WAS BORN ON MAY 18,1975 TO THE PROUD WOMAN OF
CLEMENTINE YOUNG.AS I WAS GROWING UP WE DIDN’T HAVE EXPENSIVE
CLOTHES OF SHOES BECAUSE WE WAS POOR LIFE IN A HOUSE THAT HAD THREE
ROOMS LIVING ROOM ONE BEDROOM KITCHEN AND A BATHROOM THAT HAD A
BATHTUB BUT NO TOILET WE HAD TO USE A BUCKET TO DO OUR BUSINESS AND
TAKE IT TO THE WOODS AND DUMP IT SO JUST IMAGINE THE SMELL WE HAD
AROUND US,SO IF ONE WANT TO KNOW HOW THAT LIFE WAS I T WAS NOT GOOD
AT ALL BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE EMBASSING TO LIVE LIKE THAT FOR ANY ONE BUT
ITREALLY DIDN’T MATTER TO MY MOTHER BECAUSE SHE KNEW THAT SHE HAD
A PLACE FOR HER TO CHILDREN TO LIVE.AS YEARS AS I COULD REMEMBER
THING WASN’T ALWAYS GOOD FOR MY MOTHER BUTSHE MADE THE BEST FOR
HER CHILDREN AND IT WAS FUN BECAUSE WE WAS ONE AS A FAMILY.BUT
THERE WAS TIME MY DAD CAME AROUND BUT IT WASN’T LIKE HE CAME
AROUND OFTEN BECAUSE HE DIDN’T AT ALL BASICLLY THE TIME HE CAME
AROUND THAT’S WAS WHEN MY MOM CALL HIM AND SAID THAT SHE NEEDED
MONEY FOR US TO GET SOMETHING OR SOMETHING SHE NEED FOR US .I CAN
REMEMBER WHEN I WAS IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL WHEN I USE TO GET PICK ME
AND MY BROTHER HE USE TO GET PICK ON SO BAD WHERE THERE WAS TIME
IHAD TO DEFEND HIM FROM BULLET AT SCHOOL.I REMEMBER WHEN MY MOM
WANTED SOMETHING DIFFERENT IN LIFE SO SHE WENT OUT THERE AND GOT A
JOB SO I THANK IT WAS LIKE HER SECOND DAY AT WORK AND MY SISTER
CALLED HER AT WORK AND TOLD HER THAT MY LITTLE BROTHER TOOK SICK ,
SO SHE TOLD HER SUPERVISOR THA TSHE NEEDED TO LEAVE AND THE LADY
TOLD HER THAT SHE COULDN’T LEAVE SO WHAT MY MOTHER DO SHE DID LIKE
ANY OTHER MOTHER WOULD SHE TOLD HER SUPERVISOR THAT SHE WAS
LEAVING BECAUSE SHE HADTO GO AND CHECK ON HER CHILD BECAUSE HE WAS
SICK SO HER SUPERVISOR TOLD MY MOTHER IF SHE LEAVE THAT SHE WAS
FIRED AND MY MOTHER REPLY OR YOU DON’T HAVE TO WORRYING BECAUSE I
QUIT AND YOU CAN TAKE THIS JOB AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS.SO AFTER THAT
THING HAD TRULY STARTED TO GET BAD BECAUSE SHE HAD GOT EVICTED OUT
OF OUR APARTMENT WITH SEVEN CHILDREN DIDN’T KNOW WHERE SHE WAS
GOING TO GO WITH HER CHILDREN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WINTER,SO MY
AUNT HAD LET US COME AND STAY BE HER FOR A FEWS DAYS BECAUS E YOU
KNOW HOW IT IS WHEN THIS LADY HAVE KIDSON HER OWN AND HAVE A
HUSBAND AND BACK IN THOSE DAYS AINT NOBODY GOING TO HAVE ANOTHER
WOMAN AROUND HER HUSBAND NOT SAYING THAT MY MOTHER WOULD HAVE
DID SOMETHING OUT THE WAY BECAUSE MY MOM LOVED HER SISTER AND
BROTHER A LOT BECAUSE THEY GREW UP AS A FAMILY,SO AFTER MY MOTHER
LEFT MY AUNT HOSUE WE WILL LIVED IN THE SHELTER BUT SOME KIND OF

2. WAY MY MOTHER WAS ABLE TO GET HER KIDS OUT THE SHELTER AND INTO
AND ANOTHER APARTMENT SO WE LIVED THERE FOR A MOMENT AND THEN MY
SO ON THE WEEKEND I USE TO GO BY MY DAD AND JIS GIRLFRIEND NAME MARY -
ANN SO ONE WEEK SHE TOLD MY MOM THAT SHE CAN COME THERE WITH HER
KIDS AND HAD TO WORRYING ABOUT GETTING KICK OUT ANY MORE WITH HER
CHILDREN.SO AS MONTHS WENT BY ANYTHING WAS GOING GOOD HER THE
FAMILY AS ONE.SO FEW MONTH DOWN THE LINE IT WAS A LITTLE TENSION
GOING ON BUT NOONE EVERY GOT INTO ARGUMENT OR ANYTHING S0 ON
SUNDAY JULY 8,1984 ,MY MOM ,DAD AND MARY -ANN WENT TO THE BAR TO
HAVE A FEW DRINKS ,SO MY MOM RODE WITHMARY -ANN AND MY DAD WENT BY
HIS SELF SO AS MARY-ANN AND MYMOM GOT CLOSE TO THE BAR THEY GOT
INTO AND ARGUMENT BECAUSE MARY-ANN FOUND OUT THAT MY MOM WAS
PREGNANT FOR MY DAD BUT ANY ONE IN THE FAMILY DIDN’T KNOW THAT MY
DAD AND MOM WAS STILL SLEEPING WITH EACH OTHER SO I GUESS SHE FIGURE
SINCE THAT MY MOM WAS PREGNANT FOR MY DAD THAT IT WAS GOING TO RUIN
THE RELATIONSHIP SO THEY GOT INTO A BAD ARGUMENT WHERE IT LEAD TO
THEM PUSHING EACH OTHER SO MY MOM GIVE MARY -ANN ONE GOOD PUSH AND
SHE LOST CONTROL OF THE STEERING WHEEL BECAUSE SHE WAS
DRIVING(MARY-ANN)BECAUSE MY MOM DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO DRIVE AT ALL,SO
IT WAS ABOUT 8’O’CLOCK THAT NIGHT WHEN WE GOT THAT PHONE CALL THAT
MY MOM AND MARY-ANN GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT SO THE FIRST QUESTION
COMES OUT THE FAMILY MOUTH WAS THEY OKAY BUT THE FIRE FIGHTER REPLY
THAT WE NEED THE FAMILY HERE SO SOON AS POSSIBLE SO WE GOES TO THE
ACCIDENT SCENE AND THE ONLY THING WE CAN SEE WAS FLAME AND WE ASK
THEM DID THEY MAKE OUT THE TRUCK AND THEY SAID IM SO SORRY BUT
NOONE SURVIVE OUT OF THE TRUCK AND WE ME ANDMY OLDER SISTER HEARD
THAT WE TOOK OFF RUNNING TRYING TO GET TO THE FIRE BEC AUSE WE KNEW
OUR MOTHER WAS UP IN THAT TRUCK BUT THE FIREFIGHTER RAN BEHIND US
BECAUSE AT THE TIME WE KNEW THAT WE WASN’T NEVER GOING TO SEE OUR
MOM AGAIN ,SO AFTER WE LEFT THE SCENE EVERYONE ASK WHERE MY DAD
WAS THEY SAID THAT DIDN’T KNOW SO MY AUNT CALLE DMY GRANDMOTHER
AND ASK WAS MY DAD AND SHE SAID YES BUT HE SLEEP AT THAT TIME THE
WHOLE FAMILY WAS UPSET AND PISS BECAUSE HERE IT IS THAT HIS CHILDREN
JUST LOST THEY MOTHER AND HE NEVER ONE TIME CALLED OR CAME BY TO SEE
HIS CHILDREN AND TO IF THEY WAS ALRIGHT ,AND THAT SAME NIGHT OF THE
ACCIDEDNT I WAS HAVING NIGHTMARE LIKE HELL BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE THAT
THE FIRE WAS RIGHT OUTSIDE OF THE BEDROOM WINDOW I WAS SLEEPING IN
THAT NIGHT BECAUSE THE NIGHT OF THE ACCIDENT I SLEPT BY MY
GODFATHER HOUSE,THE DREAM SEEM SO REAL THAT I HAD TO SLEEP WITHMY
COUSIN.SO THE NEXT DAY MY AUNT PLANNED MY MOM FUNERAL AND

3. EVERYTHING BUT THEY WAS LIKE NOW HOW WE GOING TO PAY FOR THIS AND
MY MOM DIDN’T HAVE LIFE INSURANCE SO SOME KIND OF WAY THEY GOT IN
TOUCH WITH MY DAD AND HE PAID FOR THE FUNERAL BUT THAT STILL DIDN’T
EXCUSE OF WHAT HE DID BECAUSE HE DIDN’T SUPPORTED US LIKE HE SHOULD
HAVE BUT THE TIME WE NEEDED HIM HE WASN’T THERE FOR US,SO THE DAY
OF THE FUNERAL EVRYONE LOOKING FOR MY DAD,NO SIGN OF MY DAD SO IT
WAS LIKE THIS IS FUCK UP BECAUSE HE DON’T COME TO HIS CHILDREN MOMMY
FUNERAL NO WHAT KIND 0F MAN IS HE BECAUSE HE CHILDREN NEEDED HIM
THEN IF WE DIDN’T NEED HIM NO OTHER TIME SO THAT’S WAS LIKE THE
SECOND DISAPPOINTED HE GIVE OF SHOW HIS CHILDREN BECAUSE I GOT THE
IMPRESSING THAT HE DIDN’T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT US BUT THE DAY OF MARY -
ANN FUNREAL HE WAS AT HER FUNERAL SUPPORTING HER GROWN ASS KIDS
AND SHE DIDN’T HAVE ANY DAM KIDS FOR HIM ,SO AFTER THE FUNERAL AND
STUFF WHEN MY FAMILY DECIDE TO GET THERE AND SUE THE COMPANY OF
THE TRUCK THAT MARY-ANN AND MY MOM WAS IN,SO YES WE GOT AWARDED A
LARGE AMOUNT OF MONEY BUT BY TIME THEY GOT THROUGH SHOPPING AND
DECORATE THEY HOUSE IT WASN’T MUCH LEFT FOR THEM TO SHOP FOR MY
SIBLING BECAUSE BASIC I WAS GETTING A PORTION OF MY MONEY SO THAT
WAS A GOOD THING FOR ME BUT NOT FOR MY SIBLING REWBECAUSE THEY
WASN’T AS LUCKY AS I WAS,BECAUSE I WAS ABLE TO WEAR NAME BRAND SHOES
AND STUFF .BUT AS I WAS GROWING UP I HAD WANTED PEOPLE WANTED ME TO
COME AND STAY WITH THEM FOR ALL THE WRONG REASON SO I G OT TIRED OF
PEOPLE MISTREATED,SO I DECIDE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT ,I TALK TO THIS
LAWYER THAT MY FATHER GIRLFRIEND KNOW SO I MADE AN APPOINMENT
WITH HIM AND DISCUSS ABOUT ME GETTING CONTROL OF MY OWN MONEY
BECAUSE WHEN I WENT AND LIVED WITH HER IT GOT WOR ST S0 I SAID HELL
NO I HAVE ENOUGH OF PEOPLE WALKING ALL OVER WITH ME THAT IM
RECEIVING EVERY MONTH AND I DON’T GET ANY SO I FINALLYSTOOD UP FOR
MYSELFAND DID WHAT I HAD TO DO,SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF MY KIDS YES BY
TIME I GOT IN MIDDLE SCHOOL I GOT PREGNANT BY THIS GUY THAT I THOUGH
HE WAS ON TOP OF THE WORLD BUT ALL THAT WAS A BIG LIE BECAUSE I USE
TO MEET UPWITH HIM BY HIS AUNT HOUSE BECAUSE NOBODY WOULD BE
THERE SO WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS PREGNANT I WAS CONFUSE FOR A
VERY LONG TIME BECAUSE I DIDN’T KNO W EXACTLY WHO WAS THE FATHER OF
MY CHILD AND THAT WAS BAD ON MY PART BECAUSE WHEN I WAS OUT THERE
BEING FAST I WAS SEARCHING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG WAY .SO YES I WAS
YOUNG AND STUPID BECAUSE THESE GUYS OUT HERE DON’T WANT NOTHING
BUT WHATS BETWEEN YOUR LEG AND AFTER HE GET THAT HE RUNNING BACK
TO HIS BOYS AND TALK ABOUT YOU LIKE IF YOU ARE A WHORE,AND NINE OUT
OF TEN HE PROBABLY ASK YOU TO HAVE SEX WITH HIM AND ONE OF HIS HOME

4. BOY AND THEY WILL PUT YOU OUT THERE LIKE IF YOU WILL SLEEP WITH ANY
BODY AND THEN AFTER SHIT DON’T GO HIS WAY HE WILL CALL YOU ALL KIND
OF NAMES YES BECAUSE I HAD GUYS TO DO IT TO ME BECAUSE WE HAVE GOT
INTO SOME KIND OF ALTERCATION AND THIS WAS BY A GUY THAT I THOUGH
THAT WILL HAVE MY BACK BUT WHEN YOU THANK YOU KNOW A PERSON THEY
WILL CHANGE ON YOUR ASS IN A HEART BEAT SO BASICLLY LADIES ITS NOT
GOOD TO PUT YOUR TRUST IN A GUY UNTIL YOUKNOW HIM FOR A COUPLE OF
YEARS BECAUSE I HAVE FEEL IN LOVE WITH MENS LIKE IN A MATTER OF
MINUTES BECAUSE HE WAS TELLING ME EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED TO HEAR
FROM A MAN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN HURT THROUGH MY LIFE AS I WAS
GROWING UP BECAUSE WHEN I WAS ABOUT FIVE -YEAR OF AGE I GOT RAPE BY
ONE OF MY COUSIN THAT I THOUGH THATI COULD TRUST ,I WAS SCARE TO TELL
MY MOTHER BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT I DID SOMETHING W RONG ,SO MY TWO
OLDEST SISTER SAW WHEN HE BROUGHT ME BACK BY THEM AND THEY ASK ME
DID HE DO ME ANYTHING AND I TRIEDTO LIED SOTHEY PULLED THE COVER OFF
ME AND THEY SAW WHERE MY CLOTHES HAVE BEEN TAKING OFF OF ME SO
THEY WAITED TO THE NEXT MORNING AND THEY T OLD MY MOTHER AND SHE
ASK ME AND I COULD LIE TO HER AND I TOLD HER THE TRUTH SO MY MOTHER
WENT AND TOLD MY AUNT THAT THEY NEEDED TO TALK SO THEY HAD THE
TALK AND SHE TOLD HER WHAT HAPPEN BUT UNFORTUNATE MY AUNT DIDN’T
BELIEVE MY MOTHER BUT MY MOTHER TOLD H ER THAT MY CHILD DON’T HAVE
NO REASON TO LIE SO SHE TOLD MY MOTHER THAT SHE WAS MOVING OUT SO
MY AUNT GOT A PLACE FORHER AND HER SON AND THEN PRETTY MUCH AFTER
THAT THING HAD GOT BACK TO NORMAL .SO BY TIME I MADE IT TO THE SIXTH
GRADE I HAD TO DROP OUT OF SCHOOL BECAUSE I HAD GOT PREGNANT WITH
MY FIRST CHILD SO I HAD MY FIRST BABY ON JULY26,1990,AND IT WAS A
BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL THAT I NAMED HER CLEMENTINE AFTER MY MOTHER
BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS SAID WHEN I HAVE A CHILD AND IF IT WAS A GIRL I
WAS GOING TO NAME HER AFTER MY MOM BECAUSE I TREASURE HER WITH ALL
MY HEART EVEN THOUGH I JUST KNOWN HER FOR ONLY NINE,BECAUSE WHEN I
REACH NINE SHE GOT INTO THE ACCIDENT AND LOST HER LIFE WHERE SHE
LEFT SEVEN CHILDREN AND WAS PREGNANT WITH TWINS AND SHE DIDN’T
EVEN KNOW IF SHE DID WE WAS THE LAST ONE TO KNOW BUT THEY FO RENSIC
TO TELL US THAT SHE WAS PREGNANT WAS TWO BABIES SO THAT WHEN THE
FAMILY PUT THE PUZZLE TOGETHER THAT MARY-ANN FOUND OUT THAT MY
MOTHER WAS PREGNANT FOR MY DAD AND THAT’S WHEN THE CAT CAME OUT
THE BAG THAT MARY-ANN AND MY FATHER WAS GOING TO MEXICO THE
FOLLOWING DAY TO GET MARRY BUT THEY KEPT IT FROM EVERYONE.SO AS I
GOT OLDER I WENT TO NEW ORLEANS COURT HOUSE OR MAYBE CITY HALL TO
READ UP ON THE LAWSUIT THAT THEY HAD AGAINST GENERAL MOTORS AND

5. SOME OF THE FILE I READ WE DIFFERENT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT UNTIL I
TOOK UPON MY SELF TO READ ABOUT WHAT I FELT LIKE THEY WASN’T TELLING
US BECAUSE IT WAS SOME STUFF THAT MY AUNT DIDN’T KNOW UNTIL I GOT
THERE AND TOLD THEM WHAT I HAD READ BECAUSE ;LIKE I TOLD MY SIBLING
ALL THE MONEY THAT WE WAS AWARDED WE DIDN’T SEE HALF OF THAT
MONEY BECAUSE WE WAS SUPPOSE TO BE TAKING CARE OF FOR THE REST OF
OUR LIFE BUT MY AUNT AND GRANDMOTHER CHANGE SOME MANY LAWYER
THAT’S WHERE OF THE MONEY WENT BECAUSE IT WAS LET WE ALL WAS
SUPPOSE TO GET 2.5 MILLIONS DOLLAR A PIECE BUT IT WAS A LOT I DIDN’T
UNDERSTAND BECAUSE I WAS SO YOUNG AND I DIDN’T HAVE ANYONE I CAN
TRUST BECAUSE EVERYONE I KNEW WAS ALL ABOUT MY MONEY THAT I WAS
GETTING.
SO I WENT TO THAT LAWYERAND I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS ON MY SIDE
BUT COMES TO FIND OUT THAT HE WAS BACK AND TELL THE LADY
EVERYTHING WAS TELLING HIM,SO I SAID FUCK IT AND I MOVE OUT OF
HER HOUSE BUT SHE WAS STILL IN CONTROL OF MY MONEY SO I HAD TO
FIND A AWYER OF MY OWN SO I KNEW ONE THAT MY GRANDMOTHER FOR
A VERY LONG TIME,SO HE WAS PRETTY LAY BACK AND WAS ABLE TO HELP
ME TO GET MY MONEY IN MY NAME SO I WOULD HAVE TO WORRY BOUT
NOT RECEIVING MY MONEY WHERE I CAN TAKE CARE OF MY
CHILDREN,BECAUSE BY TIME I HAD TWO KIDS AND ONE ON THE WAY. SO I
GOT AND DID SOME CALLING AROUND SO I CAN GET SOME KIND OF HELP
BECAUSE BACK IN THOSE DAYS YOU REALLY COULDN’T GET TOO MUCH
HELP FOR ANY ONE BECAUSE THEY ALWAYS HAVE THEY HAND OUT FOR
SOMETHING,BUT TIME I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY THREE CHILD I REALLY
DIDN’T HAVE A PLACE TO STAY,AND THE REASON IS THAT BECAUSE MY
SECOND CHILD DADDY GOT INTO AN ARGUMENT WITH MY DAD AND THEN
PULL A GUN N HIM BECAUSE MY DAD PUSH ME AND I WAS PREGNANT
WITH MY THIRD CHILD BUT IT WAS HIS SECOND SO I ASK MY SISTER
[LENA]AND TOLD YES SO I HAD WENT LIVE WITH HER AND HER
BOYFRIEND,I STOOD THERE WITH THEM FOR A COUPLES OF MONTHS AND
THEN SOMETHING HAPPEN WITH THAT SO WE HAD TO MOVE AND THAT’S
WHEN WE WENT AND LIVE WITH MY SISTER BOYFRIEND SISTER SH
REALLY DIDN’T HAVE TO MUCH ROOM SO GUESS WHERE I HAD TO SLEEP
AT WITH MY TWO CHILDREN IN A BED THAT WAS PUT IN THE KITCGEN
BECAUSE MY BABY DADDY WASN’T COMING AROUND AS MY MUCH
BECAUSE HE DIDN’T GET ALONG WITH MY FAMILY I GUESS HE DIDN’T GET
ALONG WITH MY FAMILY AS MUCH BUT YOU CANT BLAME BECAUSE MY
FAMILY PEOPLE JUST WANTED THE BEST FOR ME BECAUSE THE ROUGH

6. LIFE I WAS LIVING BECAUSE I STRUGGLER A LOT TO TAKE CARE OF MY
CHILDREN BECAUSE I WASN’T GETTING THE WELFARE I WAS RECEIVE
BECAUSE I WAS UNDER AGE SO MY SISTER WAS RECEIVING THE CHECKS
FOR ME BUT,SO AFTER I HAD WENT INTO LABOR ON OCTOBER 28 1992
THAT’S WHEN I GIVE BIRTH TO A BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL THAT WEIGHT
4LBS.AND 13OUNCES SO SHE WAS PREMATURED WHY SHE WAS PUT IN
INTENSIVE CARE UNIT BECAUSE OF HER WEIGHT AND HER HEART SO I
HSD TO GO TO CPR CLASS BEFORE SHE WENT HOME,SO ONCE I GOT OUT
THE HOSPITAL MY BABY DADDY HAD TALK TO HIS AUNT AND TOLD HER
WHAT WAS GOING ON SO SHE TOLD HIM TO BRING ME AND THE KIDS
THERE BY HER SO WE CAN HAVE A GOOD PLACE TO LIVE AND ONCE I GOT
THERE SHE MADE ME MORE COMFORTABLE THAN I FELT IN A LONG
TIME.SO MONTHS HAD WENT BY I HAD STARTED GETTING MY OWN
CHECKS AND LIVING REAL GOOD SO AFTER A FEW MONTH HAD WENT BY
ME AND MY BABY DADDY STARTED HAVING PROBLEMS BECAUSE HE
WASN’T SOENDING TIME WITH ME OR THE KIDS AND WAS A TYPICAL MAN
WANTED TO RUN THE STREET AND TRIED TO FORGET ABOUT WHAT HE
HAD AT HOME BECAUSE HE WAS OUT THERE MESSING AROUND WITH
OTHER FEMALES OUT THERE THAT REALLY DIDN’T GIVE A DAM ABOUT
HIM BECAUSE I WAS TAKING CARE OF HIM ,SO A FEWS MONTHS LATER I
FOUND OUT THAT ANOTHER FEMALE WAS PREGNANT FOR HIM SO THAT’S
WAS THE END OF THAT SO I ASK HIM,AND LADIES YOU KNOW WHAT HE
DID ,DENIAL THE WHOLE SITUATION AND LIKE I TOLD HIM ITS NO NEED
TO LIE BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW THE TRUTH BECAUSE MY BEST FRIEND
TOLD ME BECAUSE SHE KNEW MY BABY DADDY BECAUSE SHE WAS THE
ONE THAT INTRODUCE ME AND THE GUY.AT THAT TIME WHEN I MET HIM
I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY FIRST CHILD ,I WAS SURPRISE THAT HE
WANTED TO DATE ME AND I WAS ABOUT TO HAVE MY BABY ANYDAY.SO
LATER ON THAT NIGHT I HAD WENT IN ON FALSE LA BOR PAIN.AND HE
LOVE MY FIRST DAUGHTER LIKE IF SHE WAS HIS OWN BUT AFTER I HAD
GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SECOND CHILD HE LIKE HIS FAMILY PEOPLE
PUT SOME BULLSHIT IN HIS HEAD THAT MY CHILD WASN’T FOR HIM AND
HE BELIEVE THAT FOR THE WHOLE TIME I WAS PREGNANT UNTI L AFTER
I GOT OUT THE HOSPITAL WITH MY DAUGHTER AND HE CAME TO THE
HOUSE AND SAW HERAND HE COULDN’T DO NOTHING BUT LOOK AND MY
QUESTION WAS TO HIM WHAT YOU GOT TO SAY NOW. HE WAS ALL SMILE
BECAUSE THEN HE KNEW THAT WAS HIS CHILD AND I TOLD HIM LOOK AT
ALL THATBULLSHIT YOU PUT ME THROUGH LISTENING TO YOUR COUSIN
AND AUNT THAT IT WASN’T YOUR CHILD YES I WAS SEEING OTHER GUYS
BECAUSE HE HAD CHEATED ON ME WITH MY BEST FRIEND,YES HE LEFT

7. ME TO BE WITH MY BEST FRIEND AND ME AND HER FELL OUT BECAUSE
SHE KNEW THAT I WAS PREGNANT FOR HIM BUT YES MYBABY DADDY
WASN’T NOTHING BUT A BIG WHORE BECAUSE HE CHEATED ON ME WITH
SEVERAL GIRLS BUT IN MY HEART I FELT LIKE THAT IT WASN’T NOONE
ELSE OUT THERE I WANTED BUT HIM BECAUSE I PUT THIS MAN ON TOP
OF THE WORLD LIKE HE WASN’T DOING ANY WRONG BECAUSE I HAD VERY
LOW SELF ESTEEM BECAUSE THROUGH OUT MY LIFE I JUST KEEP
HEARING PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT I WASN’T GOING TO AMOUNT TO
SHIT AND THAT AINT NOONE GOING TO WANT ME AND I CARRY THAT IN
MY HEAD FOR A VERY LONG TIME ,BECAUSE AFTE R MY MOTHER DEATH
AND I GOT A LITTLE OLDER I WAS GETTING RAPE BY MY COUSIN AND I
DIDN’T TELL ANYONE BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT THEY WAS GOING TO
BLAME ME FOR WHAT WAS GOING ON,YES I RAN AWAY FROM HOME ON
MANY OCCASION BUT I KEPT IT TO MYSELF UNTIL I GOT AWAY FR OM
THEM BECAUSE I KNEW THAT IT WASN’T MY FAULT BUT I KNEW THAT
THEY WASN’T GOING TO BELIEVE ME BECAUSE IT HAPPEN TO ONE OF MY
OTHER SISTER AND SHE KEPT IT TO HERSELF.AS YEARS WENT BY OTHER I
HAD MY CHILDREN THING STILL WAS GOING BAD FOR ME AND I WAS
RUNNING FROM PILLOW TO POLE WITH MY CHILDREN I EVEN FOUND
MYSELF LIVING IN THE SHELTER WITH MY KIDS BUT I HAD TO DO TO
PROTECT MY KIDS AND THAT’S WHAT I DID BECAUSE LIVING WITH MY
SISTER AND SHE WAS TRYING TO ME HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE AND WHO TO
BE WITH AFTER I GOT THERE ANDMADE SURE THAT TWO OF HER KIDS
AND I WAS KEEPING WHILE SHE WAS AT HOME .AT FIRST THING WAS
GOING GOOD UNTIL SHE WENT TO HAVE FINCIAL PROBLEM AND THAT’S
WHEN SHE CAME HOME ONE DAY AND WAS TELLING ME ABOUT ONE OF
HER PATIENT BANK ACCOUNT SO I ASK HER WHAT SHE WAS PLANNING
ON DOING SO SHE SPOKE THAT HER PATIENT TOLD HER THAT SHE CAN
HAVE ONE OF HIS CHECK AND WRITE FOR HOW MUCH SHE WANTED SO
SHE TOOK A COUPLE OF HIS CHECK AND SHE SAID MONIQUE WE GOING TO
HAVE TO WRITE THE CHECK IN YOUR NAME AND I ASK HER WHY BUT SHE
NEVER GIVE ME A STRAIGHT UP ANSWER SO IT WAS ABOUT THREE
DIFFERENT PLACES WE WENT AND NONE OF THEM WANTED TO CASH
THE CHECK SO I WENT BACK TO THE HOUSE AND TOLD HER AND SHE SAID
OKAY AFTER THAT I THOUGH THAT SHE GIVE UP TRYING BUT SHE WENT
BEHIND MY BACK AND WENT CASH THE CHECK SO ME AS YOUNG I WAS I
DIDN’T THANK ANYTHING OF IT UNTIL A COUPLE YEARS LATER WHEN
TWO OF MY EX-BOYFRIEND CAME VISIT ME IN THE SHELTER SO I ASK
THEM WHAT THEY WANTED AND THEY SPOKE TO ME [MONIQUE]THAT’S
FUCK UP HOW YOU LET YOUR SISTER GO TO JAIL FOR SOMETHING THAT

8. YOU DID,AND MY REPLY TO THEM WHAT ARE YALL TALKING ABOUT AND
THEY SPOKE THAT SHE WENT TO JAIL FOR FORGERY OF A CHECK THAT I
STOLED BUT I NEVER WORK AT A NURSERY HOME SO I TOLD THEM I
DON’T KNOW WHAT KIND OF LIE SHE TOLD THEM BUT IT WAS A LIE SO AS
TIME WENT BY I GOT TIRED LIVING IN THE SHELTER WITH MY KIDS SO
MY SISTER ASK ME TO COME BACK AND STAY WITH HER ME BEING YOUNG
AND STUPID I WENT BACK BY HER AND MISS OUT OF GETTING MY OWN
PLACE FOR ME AND MY CHILDRE N.SO A CLOSE FRIEND HER INTRODUCE
HER TO A MAN THAT SHE MET AT A HOTEL WHERE SHE WAS WORKING SO
THEY KICK IT AND THEY DECIDE TO MOVE TO A DIFFERENT PARISH
BECAUSE WHERE IM FROM THEY CALLED IT PARISH NOT COUNTY.WE ALL
THOUGH THAT HE WAS A GOOD MAN BECAUSE THAT WHAT IT SEEM TO US
LIKE HE WAS A DOWN TO EARTH MAN BUT AFTER A FEW MONTHS HIS
DARK SIDE CAME OUT BECAUSE COME TO FIND OUT THAT HE WAS ON
DRUGS REAL BAD (CRACK COCAINE)AND I TOLD ME SISTER IN SO MANY
WAYS THAT SHE NEEDED TO LEAVE HIM ALONE BECAUSE THE ONLY
THING HE WAS DOING IS BRINGING HER JOB BECAUSE MY SISTER NEVER
DEPEND ON A MAN AFTER SHE DIVORCE HER HUSBAND BECAUSE SHE GOT
OUT THERE AND WORK FOR EVERYTHING SHE EVERY WANTED AND HELP
OTHER PEOPLE AROUND HER IF THEY NEEDED HER HELP,FOR SOME
REASON SHE LET THAT MAN BRING HER DOWN BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T
WANT TO WORK OR ANYTHING BECAUSE MY SISTER KEPT A CAR AND
ALL.SO ON A REGULAR BASIC THEY WAS GETTING INTO ARGUMENT AND
FIGHTS IN FRONT OF HER CHILDREN AND THEN HE USE TO GET THERE
AND DISRESPECT HER CHILDREN BY CALLING THEM BITCHES AND
MUTHERFUCKER AND I TOLD HER THAT SHE SHOULD WANT BETTER FOR
HER AND HER KIDS BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T STAND UP FOR HER KIDS LIKE A
MOTHER SHOULD BECAUSE I KNOW IF THAT WAS ME HED WOULD NOT
DISRESPECT MY KIDS LIKE THAT BECAUSE MY GRANDPARENTS ALWAYS
TOLD ME IF YOU WANT RESPECT YOU MUST GIVE IT TO RCEIVE IT SO I
CARRIED THAT THROUGH OUT LIFE BECAUSE THAT’S THE RIGHT THING
TO DO.SO AFTER I WENT THROUGH ALL THE BULLSHIT WITH MY SISTER
AND HER BOYFRIEND MY BROTHER THAT’S UNDER ME HE CAM E TOO ME
AND SAID [MONIQUE ]THAT’S ENOUGH BECAUSE YOU DON’T HAVE TO GO
THROUGH THAT BULLSHIT WITH THEM SO I PACK UP ME AND MY
CHILDREN STUFF AND GOT THE HELL ON BECAUSE SHE WAS TREATING
ME AND MY CHILDREN LIKE HER STEP KIDS AND I COULDN’T SIT AROUND
NO MORE AND LET HER AND HER BOYFRTRIEND MISTREAT ME AND MY
KIDS ANY MORE.SO ONCE I PACK UP MY STUFF I WENT AND LIVE WITH MY
BROTHER AND HIS WIFE AND IT WAS OKAY,UNTIL I REALLY GOT TO SEE

9. WHATKIND OF PERSON SHE WAS ,THEY LIVE VERY NASTY AND IM A TYPE
OFWOMAN THAT I CANT LIVE IN THAT TYPE OF LIFESTYLE BECAUSE I
LIKE A CLEAN HOUSE NOT A NASTY HOUSE BECAUSE THAT’S HOW MY
MOTHER RAISE ME TOBECLEAN NOT NASTY BECAUSE A MAN DON’T LIKE
A NASTY HOUSE AT ALL,SO AFTER A FEW MONTHS LIVING WITH MY
BROTHER MY OLDEST DAUGHTER WENT TO THESTORE WITH HERAND
SISTER AND GOT INTO A ACCIDENT WHERE SHE GOT HIT BY TWO CARS
THE FIRST CAR THAT HIT HER JUST HAD BROKE HER PELVIS BONE BUT
THE SECOND CAR LEFT MY CHILD FOR DEAD BECAUSE HE DRUG HER TWO
HUNDRED FEET BUT THEY SAID JUST PICTURE A FOOTBALL FIELD AND
WHEN UPON ARRIVE THE FIRST QUESTION THAT CAME OUT MY MOUTH
TO THE DOCTOR WAS SHE GOING TO BE OKAY AND HIS REPLY WAS TO ME
I CANT MAKE YOU ANY PROMISE BECAUSE SHE HAD WENT IN A COMA AND
I COULDN’T DO NOTHING BUT CRIED BECAUSE THE FIRST HO SPITAL THEY
TOOK HER TOO DIDN’T HAVE THE RIGHT EQUIPMENT FOR HER BECAUSE
SHE WAS ONLY SIX YEARS OLD BUT MY OTHER DAUGHTER DIDN’T GET
HURT AT ALL SO THAT WAS A GOOD THING BUT EVERYBODY WAS AT
THEHOSPITAL BUT WE WASN’T THERE FOR LONG BECAUSE THE DOCTOR
LET ME IN THERE TO SEE HER BUT THEY TOLD ME THAT I HAD TO HURRY
AND GET OUT AND MY BROTHER TOLD ME THAT IT WAS GOING TO BE
ALRIGHT BECAUSE WHEN HE ARRIVE ON THE SCENE OF THE ACCIDENT
AND PULL THE PARAMEDIC DOOR WIDE UP BECAUSE HE KNEW THAT HIS
NIECE WAS HURT REAL BAD SO I HAD TO TELL HIM TO LET US GO
BECAUSE THEY NEEDED TO GET HER TO THE EMERGENCY QUICKLY SO WE
GOT HER THERE BUIT THEN HAD TO RUSH HER TO CHILDREN HOSPITAL
BECAUSE THEY HAD ALL THE RIGHT EQUIPMENT FOR HER AND IT WAS
REALLY HEART BROKEN TO SEE MY CHILD LYING THERE IN THE BED AND
SHE DIDN’T KNOW WHO I WAS BUT KNEW WHO MY BROTHER WAS BUT
THAT’S WAS A GOOD THING BECAUSE AT LEAST SHE KNEW SOME BODY IN
THE FAMILY SO AFTER A FEW DAYS LATER SHE CAME AROUND.SHE WAS
SO HURT BECAUSE SHE THOUGH THAT IT WAS FAUL T AND LIKE I TOLD
HER NO IT WASN’T HER FAULT SHE WAS HURT BECAUSE AHE HAD TO
LEARN TO WALK ALL OVER AGAIN BECAUSE SHE WAS IN A WHEEL CHAIR
AND HAD TO GET IN A WHIRLPOOL;BECAUSE HE HAD LEFT HER WITH A
LOT OF MARKS ON HER BODY AND I TOLD HER NO MORE WHAT SH E WILL
ALWAYS BE BEAUTIFUL NO MATTER WHAT ANYBODY SAY.SO YES SHE WAS
IN THE HOSPITAL FOR WHOLE MONTH AND A HALF.YES THROUGH ALL
THAT MUST I SAY THAT I WAS SEVEN MONTHS PREGNANT WITH MY LAST
SON,SO IT WAS VERY HARD FOR ME BECAUSE I HAD FOUR OTHER KIDS
HOME THAT I HAD TO GO HOME AND CHECK ON THEM BECAUSE THEY

10. WAS HOME WITH MY SISTER AND HER TWO KIDS BUT SHE REALLY DIDN’T
MIND BECAUSE SHE WAS HELPING ME OUT WITH THEM.WHEN MY
DAUGHTER GOT TO THE UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT HAPPEN TO HER SHE
HAD A LOT OF QUESTION FOR ME AND I GOT THERE AND EXPLAIN TO HER
AS MUCH AS I COULD AND WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR COURT AND SHE SAW
THE MAN FOR A TIME SHE ASK ME MOMMA IS THAT THE MAN THAT HIT
ME AND KEPT GOING AND I TOLD HER YES,AND SHE CAME BACK AND ASK
ME WHY DID HE DO THAT TO HER AND I SAID BABY MOMMA REALLY
COULD TELL YOU BECAUSE I KNOW THAT HE WAS HAVING SOME KIND OF
NIGHTMARE BECAUSE WHEN HE FIRST SAW HER HE COULDN’T LOOK HER
WAY BECAUSE HE KNEW THAT HE DID WRONG AND THAT MY CHILD
COULD HAVE DIED FROM HER INJURY BUT BY THE GRACE OF GOD HE LEFT
HER IN THE WORLD WITH HER LOVE ONES,AND I WAS TRULY
HAPPYWHEN SHE WAS ABLE TO DO WHAT NORMAL KIDS COULD DO.SO I
SAY THAT ARE SOME GOOD PEOPLE OUT HERE IN THE WORLD BUT YOU
MUST BE REAL CAREFUL OF HOW YOU TREAT A PERSON BECAUSE YOU
DON’T KNOW WHO YOU GOING TO NEED.AFTER MY SON TURNED NINE
MONTHS AND THIS MAN CAME INTO ME AND MY CHILDREN LIFE BUT AT
FIRST I WASN’T INTERESTED BECAUSE I KNEW WHAT MY SISTER
BOYFRIEND WAS TRYING TO DO BECAUSE EVERYTIME HE MET SOMEONE
AT WORK AND HE WILL BRING THEM TO THE HOUSE TRYING TO SET ME
UP WITH THEM ,SO HE PROBABLY WAS AT THE HOUSE ABOUT FOUR
MONTHS BEFORE WE DECIDE TO DO ANYTHING SO I GOT TO KNOWING
HIM AND HE WAS A VERY LOVELY MAN THAT I EVER MET IN A LONG,LONG
TIME.SO HE START TAKING ME OUT TO SHOW ME A GOOD TIME AND
WHEN HE DID TOOK ME OUT HE PAID MY SISTER FOR WATCHING MY
CHILDREN.SO WE GOT ALONG REAL GOOD SO WE START DATING AND
THEN LIKE LIKE TWO MONTHS IN THE RELATIONSHIP,WE WAS AT THE
HOUSE TAKING A NAP SO ON THIS THURSDAY ATERNOON MY NIECE CAME
HOME FROM SCHOOL AND KNOCK ON MY ROOM DOOR AND SAID AUNTIE
MONIQUE IT’S A WHITE MAN AT THE DOCTOR WANT YOU AND I REPLY TO
HER GIRL DON’T BE COME CALLING ME FOR SOME WHITEIT MIGHT BE THE
COP,AND IT WAS THE MUTHERFUCKER BOUNTY HUNTER I COULDN’T DO
NOTHING BUT PUT MY HAND BEHJND MY BACK AND HE REPLY AND SAID
BABY SINCE YOU ARE BEING SO NICE ABOUT IT YOU CAN PUT YOUR HAND
IN THE FRONT SO HE TOOK ME ON IN FOR JUMPING BOND BECAUSE I LEFT
ONE PARISH AND WENT TO ANOTHER PARISH AND LIVED. BUT THERE ARE
PEOPLE OUT HERE THANKING THAT THEY CAN BEATING THE LAW THAT’S
A LIED BECAUSE IT’S A TRUE SAYING YOU CAN RUN BUT YOU CANT HIDE
FOREVER BECAUSE YOU WILL HAVE TO COME OUT FOR SOME KIND OF

11. REASON.I STOOD IN JAIL FOR TWO MONTHS AND I PRETTY MUCH C RIED
EVERYDAY BECAUSE I HAD MISS MY CHILDREN SO MUCH AND I COULDN’T
SEE OR WHOLE THEM,AND THEN I HAD A NINE MONTH OS SON BACK AT
THE HOUSE.SO WHEN I DID FINALLY GOT OUT OF JAIL MY SON DIDN’T
EVEN KNOW WHO I WAS AND THAT HAD HURTED A LOT. AFTER A FEW
DAYS THAT’S WHEN HE REMEMBER WHO I WAS SO ONCE I GOT OUT OF
JAIL I FOUND OUT THAT MY BOYFRIEND NO LONGER LIVED WITH MY
SISTER AND HER BOYFRIEND NO MORE AND THE REASON WAS BECAUSE
HE WAS S BEING VERY RUDE WHERE HE DIDN’T HAVE RESPECT FOR HIM
BECAUSE MY BOYFRIEND WORK AT NIGHT SO THAT MEAN MY SISTER HAD
MY KIDS AT NIGHT WHY HE WAS AT WORK BECAUSE HE TRIED HE BEST
TO GET ME OUT OF JAIL BUT MY BROTHER WIFE AT THAT TIME TOLD THE
PEOPLE AT THAT TIME THAT MY BOYFRIEND DIDN’T LIVE IN NEW
ORLEANS THAT HE LIVED IN MOBILE ALABAMA,BUT IT WAS TRUE THAT
HE FROM ALABAMA BUT HE HAD MOVE TO NEW ORLEANS BECAUSE
THAT’S WHERE HE WAS WORKING,SO SHE MESS THAT UP FOR ME AND I
HAD TO STAY IN JAIL UNTIL IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO GO TO COURT,BUT I
DID KNEW THAT HE TRIED REAL HARD TO GET ME OUT SO I COULDN’T
GET MAD AT HIM BUT MY BROTHER WAS VERY UPSET BECAUSE HE DIDN’T
WANT ME IN THAT PLACE EITHER BECAUSE I WASN’T THERE TO TAKE
CARE OF MY SIX CHILDREN AND I WAS MISSING MY CHILDREN VERY MUCH
BECAUSE I WASN’T USE OF NOT BEING AROUND MY KIDS,BECAUS E WHEN I
WAS WOKE UPIN THE MORNING I WAS ABLE TO GET MY CHILDREN UP IN
THE MORNING AND GOT THEM READY FOR SCHOOL BEC AUSE I KNEW
THAT IT WAS MY JOB AS A MOTHER TO MAKE SURE THAT THEY GOT UP IN
THE MORNING AND YES I WAS MISSING THAT A LOT BECAUSE I FELT LIK E
I WASN’T DOING MY JOB AS A MOTHER BECAUSE ANYBODY THAT GOT KIDS
KNOW THAT LONG AS THEY HAVE CHILDREN THEY JOB NEVER STOP OR
END.THAT WASN’T A DAY THAT I NEVER THOUGH ABOUT MY CHILDREN
BECAUSE I CRIED EVERYDAY FOR MY CHILDREN CAUSE I KNEW THAT MY
KIDS HAD MISS THEY MOTHER,WHAT HURTED THE MOST IS WHEN MY
SISTER LET HER BOYFRIEND TRIED TO DOG MY KIDS OUT BY TELLING
THEM LIES ABOUT ME NOT LOVING THEM BUT TO TOP IT ALL THEY HAD
THE NERVES TO CALL DHR ON ME SAYING THAT I WAS LEAVING MY
CHILDREN IN THE HOUSE BY THEY SELF AND I THOUGH THAT MY SISTER
WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT BUT I CAN TELL Y’ALL LADIES
AND MEN SOMETIME YOUR FAMILY PEOPLE CAN BE YOUR WORST ENEMY
BECAUSE I HAD TO FIND THIS OUT THE HARD WAY BECAUSE I THOUGH
THAT MY SISTER WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT BUT COME TO
FIND OUT IT WAS TRUE,SO PICTURE YOURSELF AS A PARENT TO HEAR

12. YOUR CHILDREN COME AND TELL YOU THAT YOUR SISTERCALLED CHILD
PROTECTION ON YOU AND TELLING THEM SOME LIES.SO ONCE ALL TRHAT
HGAPPEN I KNEW THEN THAT IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO GET FROM
AROUND THEM BECAUSE I HAD NEEDED TO PROTECT MY KIDS MUCH
CLOSE THAN I WAS BECAUSE I SEE THAT IT WAS PEOPLE OUT THERE
TRYING TO HURT ME AND MY KIDS THAT I BROUGHT INTO THIS WORLD
AND I WASN’T GOING TO LET ANYONE HURT ME OR THEM ANYMORE. SO
ONCE I LEFT NEW ORLEANS MY BOYFRIEND HAD GOT HIM A JOB IN
MISSISSIPPI AND I STOOD THERE WITH HIM FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS
AND THEN I WENT BACK TO NEW ORLEANS BECAUSE THE JOB HAD RAN
OUT SO THAT’S WHEN HE WENT TO PANAMA CITY AND GOT A JOB THERE
AND WHEN I GOT THERE I JUST THOUGH LIKE OKAY IM ON TOP OF THE
WORLD NOW BECAUSE IM IN PEACE,SO AFTER BEING THERE FOR A FEW
MONTHS I HAD WENT AND GOT A JOB AND I LIKED MY JOB AND MY KIDS
WAS IN SCHOOL AND DAY CARE BUT I DIDN’T HAVE ALL MY KIDS I HAD
ONLY FOUR OF THE SIX.BUT THE WORST OF ALL THAT ON MY SIXTEEN
BIRTHDAY MY BIOLICAL FATHER GOT IN THE BED WITH ME AND IT FREAK
ME OUT SO THAT’S WHEN I GOT OUT AND WHEN CALLED HIS
GIRLFRIEND.IT HAD GOT SO BAD WHERE WE HAD TO CALLED THE POLICE
AND THEY ASK ME DID MY FATHER TRIED ANYTHIN G WITH ME AND I
TOLD THEM NO BECAUSE WHEN I REALIZE THAT IT WAS HIM I JUMP OUT
THE BED BECAUSE DOING THAT TIME MY DAD WAS A VERY HARD
DRANKER.WHEN I WAS GROWING UP I DIDN’T HAVE A NORMAL CHILD
LIFE BECAUSE IT WAS SO MUCH OF BAD THING WAS HAPPEN TO ME WITH
MY FAMILY,DON’T GET ME WRONG I LOVE MY FAMILY JUST LIKE ANYBODY
ELSE I HAD ALWAYS WANT TO BE A FAMILY PERSON SO WHEN THE
WEEKEND CAME AROUND I HAD WANTED TO DO THING AS A FAMILY BUT
MY FAMILY WASN’T THAT CLOSE TO HAVE FAMILY GATHERING,LIKE
OTHER FAMILY PEOPLE THAT I SEE.SO AFTER ME AND MY KIDS LEFT
PANAMA CITY FLORIDA THAT’S WHEN MY FIANCE’ LEFT AND WENT TO
TAMPA FLORIDA BUT ME AND THE KIDS STOOD WHEN LEFT TO GO TO
TAMPA E SEND THE COORNIDATOR OF HIS JOB TO COME AND GET ME AND
THE KIDS ,SO WHEN I GOT TO TAMPA I KNEW RIGHT THEN I WASN’T
GOING TO LIKE BECAUSE WHERE WE WAS LIVING IN A DRUG AREA,AFTER
I GOT ADJUSTED TO THE AREA THAT’S WHEN THE TRUTH CAME OUT WITH
MY FIANCE BECAUSE AT TIME HE GOT PAID HE DIDN’T EVEN CAME HOME
SOME TIME UNTIL THE NEXT MORNING AND I WAS LIKE WHERE THE HELL
YOU BEEN AT NIGHT SO LADIES YALL KNOW WHAT I WAS THANKIN LIKE
WHERE THE FUCK YOU BEEN AT ALL NIGHT FIRST THING CAME OUT HIS
MOUTH THAT HE GOT DRUNK AND FELL TO SLEEP BUT I DIDN’T BELIEVE

13. IT BECAUSE I WAS DURING SOME SEARCHING ARO UND,BECAUSE I HAD A
FUNNY FEELING THAT HE WAS ON DRUGS AND IT WAS TRUE BECAUSE I
WAS WONDERING WHY HE COULDN’T PERFOM LIKE HE USE TO BE WHEN
WE FIRST MET,EVERYTIME I TRIED TO LEAVE HE WOULDN’T LET ME SO I
HAD START MESSING AROUND ON HIM WITH A YOUNGER GUY, SO ME AND
THE GUY WHEN KICKING IT I MET HIS MOMMY HIS STEPDAD AND SISTER I
WANTED SAY THAT IT WAS ABOUT AA GOOD SIX MONTH TILL A YEAR
BEFORE MY HUSBAND FOUND OUT THAT I WAS MESSING AROUND ON HIM
BUT WHEN HE CAUGHT ME AND THE GUY TOGETHER WE WASN’T DOING
NOTHING BUT TALKING AND HE HAD ASSUME THE WORST AT THAT TIME
BECAUSE WE HAVENT DID ANYTHING SO AFTER I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP
WITH GUY I FOUND MYSELF ON DRUG AND IT WAS COCAINE BUT
EVERYONE THOUGH THAT HE GOT ME ON COCAINE BUT HE DIDN’T
BECAUSE HE NAPPEN TO BE AT MY HOUSE ONE NIGHTN AFTER MY
HUSBAND WALKING OUT ON ME BECAUSE WHAT HE SAW BUT IT WASN’T
NOTHING SERIOUS BUT THAT’S HOW HE FELT SO I SAID FUCK IT BECAUSE
HE COULD HAVE HANDLE THAT SITUATION WAY BETTER THAN THAT SO
HE CAME BACK TO ALABAMA AND FEED HIS FAMILY MEMBERS A WHOLE
BUNCH OF LIES,BUT IT REALLY DIDN’T BOTHER ME BECAUSE I KNEW
THAT IT WASN’T NOTHING BE TOLD BUT I LOOK AT LIKE THIS IF HE
WOULDN’T HAVE BEEN OUT THERE ON DRUGS LIKE HE WAS SUPPOSE IT
WOULDN’T NEVER TURNED OUT LIKE THAT. BECAUSE WHAT I LOT OF
FEMALE SIT THERE AND BELIEVE THEY HUSBAND OR FIANCE WHATEVER
LIED THEY FEED TO THEM BUT I LOOK AT IT LIKE THIS IF YOUR MAN
STAYED OUT ALL IS THAT HE EITHER CHEATING ON HE ON DRUGS BUT ITS
WAYS THAT YOU CAN FIND OUT WHETHER IF HE ON DRUGS BECAUSE
YOUR WHOLE SEX LIFE WILL CHANGED,SO LADIES PLEASE BE ALERT OF
YOUR RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE I SEE A LOT OF MY YOUNG BLACK FEMALE
FALL IN LOVE WITH THESE GUYS THAT THEY THANK THEY GOING TO BE
TOGETHER FOREVER BUT ONCE THEY GET GOOD IN THAT RELATIONSHIP
WATCH HOW HE CHANGE ON YOU AND GOING TO WANT YOU TO DO WHAT
HE SAY TO DO AND THEN WE DON’T THAT’S WHEN HE GET TO THE POINT
WHERE HE GOING TO START BEATING ON YOU AND THEN AT FIRST YOU
SIT THERE AND ALLOWED IT TO HAPPEN BECAUSE THE ONLY THING YOU
GOING TO DO IS SIT THERE AND SAY STOP I KNOW THIS BECAUSE IT
HAPPEN TO ME SO AFTER I GOT TIRED OF BEING HE PUNCHING BAG AND I
SAID TO MYSELF AND I DON’T NEED THIS AND I DESERVE SOMETHING
BETTER ,SO I GOT MY THINGS AND LEFT BECAUSE JUST SITTING THERE
AND LET SOMEONE MJSTREAT YOU WHETHER IF ITS PHYSICAL OR
EMOTIONAL ITS ABUSE AND AS A WOMAN YOU SHOULD ALWAYS HAVE

14. HIGH STANDARD FOR YOURSELF BECAUSE IT WILL TAKE YOU A LONG
WAYWHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING IN LIFE,BECAUSE THAT’S NOT A DAY
GO BY AND I SAY TOMYSELF I WANT HIGH STANDARD BEC AUSE THAT’S
ARE MY DREAM AS A YOUNG BLACK FEMALE WITH SIX CHILDREN THAT I
WANT THEMTO HAVE HIGH STANDARD.BY TIME I WAS THIRTY-SIX I HAD
SIX GRANDKIDS IT WAS THEY MOST WONDERFUL THING I COLUD
EXPERIENCE ;BUT THEN I LOST MY GRANDDAUGHTER WHEN SHE WAS
ALWAYS THREE MONTHS AND IT SEEM LIKE MY LIFE CAME TO A STOP FOR
A MINUTE BUT I KNOW I COULDN’T CONTINUE ON THANKING OR LIVING
LIFE BECAUSE I HAD OTHER GRANDKIDS TO LIVE FOR AND THAT NEEDED
ME SO I CAN LIVE TO SEE THEM GROW UP AS DAY GO BY OR WHEN GOD
WAS READY FOR ME TO COME ON HOME.THROUGH OUT LIFE I HAD
EXPERIENCE AND WENT THROUGH SOME BAD THING IN LIFE BUT I
DIDN’T GIVE UP BECAUSE I WASN’T GOING TO LET ANYONE TAKEAWAY MY
JOY THAT I HAVE IN LIFE SO I PRAYED EVERYDAY AND ASK FOR
GUIDENESS.YES YOU WILL HAVE SOME UPS AND DOWN BUT LIFE JUST
DON’T STOP AT THAT POINT INLIFE BECAUSE PUTS EVRYONE HERE FOR A
REASON SO HE KNOWS WHEN YOUR LIFE WILL COME TO AND END THAT’S
NOT YOURS OR ANYBODY ELSE ,BECAUSE SOME OF US IS HEAR FOR A
SHORT PERIOD OF TIME AND SOME IS HEAR LONG ER.BUT THERE ARE
SOME WONDRFUL PEOPLE OUT THERE AND SOME ARE NOT.BUT LIVING
LIFE IS MOST THE MOST WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE ,SOME TO ALL MY
PEOPLE DON’T TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED BECAUSE YOUR LIFE SHOULD BE
PRECIOUS.SO THROUGH ALL THE DAYS ALL MY LIFE BY TIME I WAS
TWENTY I HAVE TRAVELED PRETTY MUCH ACROSS THE SOUTH PART OF
THE STATE THE ONLY STATE I HAVENT BEEN WAS TEXAS, ARKANAS BUT
EVERYWHERE ELSE I HAVE BETWEEN MY CHILDREN FATHER AND
HUSBAND THAT HOW I GOT TO SEE THAT PART OF THE SOUTH.BUT BACK
TO MY YOUNG SISTER PLEASE BE CAREFUL OF WHO YOU GET INVOLVE IN
BECAUSE SOMETIME IT CAN BE THE WRONG ONE BUT AT THAT SAME
TIME IT CAN BE YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP FOR YOU AND THE LAST FOR
YOUR FAMILY TO HAVE WITH YOU. I HAVE MOVE SO MUCH IN MY LIFE
WITH MY CHILDREN BUT I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH AS MOVING FROM
DIFFERENT I PRETTY MUCH MOVE THROUGH OUT THE SOUTH I CANT SAY
THAT ALL WAS GOOD BECAUSE IT WASN’T BUT I MANAGER THROUGH
SOME OF IT BEC AUSE THERE WAS TIME WHERE I WANTED TO TAKE MY
LIFE BUT SOMETHING KEPT TELLING ME DON’T DO IT BECAUSE OF MY
CHILDREN THAT I HAD TO THANK OF BECAUSE I WAS LIVING FOR MY
CHILDREN NOT MY SELF ANY MORE.SO I TURNED MY LIFE AROUND A LOT
BECAUSE I HAD A LOT OF HATE INSIDE OF ME FOR DIFFERENT PEOPLE

15. BECAUSE I THOUGH THAT EVERYBODY WAS OUT TO HURT M E BUT SOME
PEOPLE WAS OUT TO HELP ME AND I GOT HELP FROM A LOT OF PEOPLE
AND I KNOW THAT I DIDN’T THANK THEM IN PERSON BUT I PRAY TO MY
GOD AND SPOKE THAT I WAS GRACEFUL FOR ALL THE HELP AND LOVE
THAT PEOPLE WAS HELPING ME WITH MY KIDS BECAUSE WHEN I WAS
TRYING TO GET HELP FROM THE CHILDREN DADDY OR MY FAMILY
PEOPLE I COULDN’T GET ANY HELP BUT I KEPT STRU GGLING LIKE I BEEN
DOING BECAUSE I KNOW THAT GOD WAS GOING TO SEND A BLESSING MY
WAY..SO