1. BeanSwitch Staff
Executive Editors –
Misty Dunlap
Sheila Scott
Visual Editor –
Kalsey Stults
Supporting Cast -
Eli Anderson
Eric Brand
Dave Chambliss
Jonathan French
Rocky Holland
Zack Nabors
Jennifer Parrish
Madilyn Peay
Beth Reed
Lyndsay Riggs
Crystal Springer
Marah Vogt
Sarah Williams
Faculty Advisors -
Chris Hill –
Department of English and Modern Foreign Languages
Jeffery Longacre –
Department of English and Modern Foreign Languages
Tomi Parrish –
Department of Communications
2. Art Table of Contents
Fire and Ice Cody Speed Cover
Ballet Dancer Memori DePriest 1
Mystic Moon Zachariah Dickson 3
Not Ready to Leave Here Cody Speed 9
Tearfall Zachariah Dickson 11
Drops of Jupiter Cody Speed 13
Distant Places Bring Lonesome Faces Cody Michael Williams 15
The Calling Mary Jean Hall 16
? Alexandra Stover 19
Wish Right Now Cody Speed 20
Sadness Zachariah Dickson 23
Gaze Alexandra Stover 26
Tree Woman Cries Zachariah Dickson 24
Dance It All Away Beth Crocker 28
To be Unmeasured Cody Michael Williams 31
Waterland Zachariah Dickson 33
Blooming with Hue Jocelyne Barchet 34
Another View of the Eiffel Tower Kara Kidwell 35
Abstract Painting Lauren Suiter 36
Center Melanie O’Neil 37
Wine Bottle Aaron Burks 38
Alone at Last Megan Schwab 39
3. Curious Aquarium Jocelyne Barchet 40
Nighttime Melanie O’Neil 41
Gilt and Crystal at the Louvre Kara Kidwell 43
Night Sky Dreamscape Jocelyne Barchet 45
Blackhole Sun Zach Johnson 46
Oil Alexandra Stover 48
Into the Dark Cody Speed 50
The Companion Diane Shaw 54
Tilted, Twisted, and Worn Donna Hacker 57
Wonderland Zachariah Dickson 59
Feather Stone Cody Speed 60
Deadly Substance Jocelyne Barchet 69
12:30 Aaron Burks 70
Timeless Kait Scott 73
4. Literary Table of Contents
The Wedding Dance Belinda Barker 2
The Visitors Sonny Taylor 4
These Shoes Belinda Barker 10
We Buried a Boy Today Belinda Barker 12
Benefits Brittney Reed 14
In God We Trust Ashley Burton 17
A Sideways Glance Kristin Brooks 21
Wonder Lust Rachel Hurst 25
Colorful Jami Miller 27
The All Powerful Hairy Hand Jonathan Lucas French 29
The Question Cody Jarman 32
Ephemera Brittney Reed 42
A Modern Pyramus and Thisbe Misty Dunlap 44
Rotting Teeth Rachel Hurst 47
The Gremlin of All Hallow’s Eve Eli Anderson 49
Should I Do This? Regan Ward 51
The Shakes Toshya Leonard 55
Family Photographs Belinda Barker 58
Road to Recovery Rocky Holland 61
Please, Professor Kathleen Alford 71
5. Ballet Dancer
Memori DePriest
Title: Ballet Dancer
Media: Graphite Pencils
Size: 11 x 14 inches
Intention: Wanted to try a technique we had done earlier in figure
drawing while it was fresh on my mind. 1
6. The Wedding Dance
Belinda Barker
the wedding dance
of dreams yet untold
a ballerina I am! grace
and beauty to behold
a dress of organza
or leather or lace
and the joy of completion ripe
on my face
my Papa in earnest
showing his prize
and me in his glory
reflecting his eyes
the wedding dance
of dreams now told
a woman I am! grace
and beauty to behold
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7. Mystic Moon
Zacharia Dickson
Graphic Design
2170 X 2996 pixels
Capturing the eye of the viewer with the many aspects of the
night, and provoking the same mystified emotion that one has
when looking at the moon.
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8. The Visitor
Sonny Taylor
Sitting in the hospital waiting room, a little girl swings her legs slowly. Her
hands are braced on the semi-soft plastic of the chair cushion as she looks around
the sterile, dimly lit room with soft brown eyes. Hospitals are nothing new to this
four-year-old, though for once she’s experiencing the waiting room as a visitor,
not a patient soon to be ushered back into a room. Still, the nurses are familiar to
her. Her gaze halts its exploration of the off-white walls as the squeaking of shoes
reaches her ears. Glancing in that direction, she smiles hesitantly at the woman
walking towards her, a nurse she knows from her countless visits here. This
nurse, she remembers, is particularly gentle when drawing blood.
“Hi!” she chimes sweetly, giving the woman a delighted smile, revealing
teeth that are just crooked enough to be charming, along with deep dimples. The
nurse stops by the little girl’s chair, the squeaking of her typical white shoes
coming to an abrupt halt.
“Hey, sweetie,” she answers warmly, her voice low and soothing. To the
little girl, she sounds like what a nurse should sound like, comforting, gentle and
friendly. Reaching one calloused hand into the pocket of her hot pink scrubs, she
pulls out a prized piece of candy for the girl, a small red lollipop wrapped in clear
plastic. Smiling, the girl takes the lollipop and opens it, popping it into her mouth
with a soft lip-smacking sound as she mumbles a polite, thank you. The nurse
laughs, reaching out to ruffle the little one’s dark curls.
“Are you excited about meeting your little brother?”
Gazing up at the nice woman’s angular face and pretty green eyes, the little
girl rolls her eyes.
“Not really. Babies are ugly. But, Momma says I ain’t gunna thank that when
I see him,” she answers honestly, knowing that it isn’t right to lie.
The nurse laughs, shaking her head slightly. As the tip of her long blond
ponytail brushes against her back, she gives the girl a conspirator’s grin.
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9. “I thought my little brother was ugly when he was born, too. And he sure
did annoy me. But, I loved him, and when he woke us up in the middle of the
night with his crying, I’d always try to help my parents get him back to sleep.”
The little girl wrinkles her nose, her pale lips turning downwards to form a
serious frown.
“I sure hope he don’t keep me up all night. I gotta go to school, ya know.”
“I’m sure you’ll be able to get plenty of sleep, sw--” The nurse’s response is cut
off by the sudden voice booming in the air, the intercom speaker almost visibly
rattling from the sound. She lets out a startled sigh and stands quickly.
“You be good now,” she calls as she rushes off, her shoes squeaking again, much
faster this time.
Nearly an hour later, a painfully long amount of time for the little girl, a
doctor comes out and leads her back into a room. She skips along beside him
happily, her tiny legs working overtime to keep up with his long strides. Once in
the room, the girl lets out a delighted cry of “Mommy!” before rushing towards
the woman. She half climbs onto the bed, struggling slightly with its height, to
plant a loud cherry scented kiss on the dark haired woman’s sweaty cheek. Then
she freezes, her brown eyes locking on the bundle in the baby bed next to her
Mommy.
“Is that him?” she asks curiously, not looking away from the bundle to see
her mother’s smile.
“That’s him, alright. You have a little brother, possum britches. His name is
Nathan,” the mother answers weakly, obviously more than a tad tired from the
hours of labor.
The little girl hops off the bed and walks slowly over to the baby’s bed,
stretching up on her tiptoes to see him better. As her mother and the doctor talk,
the girl stares at the little thing in the bed. It doesn’t look completely human; its
head is big, its body is too long, its hands are chubby, and its fingers are so tiny
that she isn’t sure they’re fully formed. As she stares at him, the little thing blinks
slowly and then gazes up at her with squinty blue eyes. She reaches over slowly
to touch his puffy little hand, wondering why his skin is so red that when she
touches it the spot around her fingers goes all white and weird looking. The baby
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10. wiggles his fingers slightly, barely a twitch, and she slides her index finger against
his palm. As he closes his tiny little stubs around her slim digit, a delighted smile
breaks across her innocent face. Practically glowing with happiness, she gazes
adoringly at the little boy until he closes his eyes again and releases her finger.
Finally, she looks towards her mother again.
“Mommy?” she quips quietly, not wanting to disturb the baby.
“Yes?”
“I gunna call him Bubba,” she answers, as though this is the most simple,
and highly important, thing in the world.
For around six months the little girl goes to school when she has to, but
otherwise she stays home, practically attached to her brother’s side. In her mind,
the rapidly growing baby is the most precious thing in the world. She doesn’t
mind when he cries. She patiently allows him to pull on her long brown curls. She
giggles at how much noise he makes when he’s happy and how he smiles when he
sees her. Life is perfect.
One night, at her grandma’s house, Bubba is lying on the couch while
Momma gets ready to change his diaper. The girl prances into the kitchen,
opening the door to the large white refrigerator and looking around in it. Not
finding what she wants, she shuts the door and heads towards the back porch to
ask her Pa if he can help. However, before she can cross the distance, she hears
an alarmed cry. She rushes towards the sound quickly, hearing her Bubba’s wail
start up. Before she can get to him, she’s scooped up in her Daddy’s arms and
carried in the opposite direction. Daddy takes her home, without Momma or
Bubba, and for hours she paces the house, whining impatiently and demanding to
see her brother. Finally, Momma comes in the door, Bubba in her arms. The little
girl rushes towards them, rambling on a mile a minute wanting to know what’s
happening and why everyone’s so upset.
“Bubby just hit his head,” Momma explains quietly, as the strapping baby
boy reaches impatiently for his sister, making grabby hands.
Satisfied with this response, and seeing that he’s okay, the little girl reaches
up and slides her own sun-kissed hand into his chubby paw. Things go back to
normal, for a few days.
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11. Three nights later, the little girl stands in the waiting room of a hospital,
yet again. This time, tears streak down her cheeks and she clutches her jacket
closed around her pajamas. A Beanie Baby puppy is firmly squished between one
arm and her chest as she sobs quietly, pleading with anyone who will listen, to
please tell her what’s wrong. She can’t understand why her Bubba was shaking so
badly, or why her Momma and Daddy are crying and they aren’t allowed to see
him. As they cart the little boy out of the hospital on a stretcher, into the awaiting
helicopter, the little girl rushes after him. She stands in the hospital doors,
watching the massive blades slice through the air, practically cowering away from
the terrible sound. She watches with wide, terrified eyes as the giant metal beast
takes her brother away. Then, she’s rushed off to her grandma’s house while
Momma and Daddy go to take care of Bubba and bring him home.
Not a week later, she’s sitting in the miniature rocking chair in the middle of her
grandma’s living room, clutching the same stuffed puppy to her chest. Her face
is still streaked with tears, but she’s smiling up at a man in a dark suit. This man,
his light brown eyes warm and welcoming, jokes with her. He asks to sit in her
chair, and she squeals in protest, informing him that he’s too big and will break
it. He asks to see her puppy, and she clutches it tighter, her bright smile suddenly
fading. He sighs, his dark skin lacking in a certain glow that shows someone
is enjoying his activity. Brushing his lanky fingers through his short brown
hair, he crouches down in front of the girl, giving her a very serious look. And
then he asks a round of questions that range from just plain silly to absolutely
devastating. Finally, she’s in tears again, glaring up at this man. His eyes are no
longer warm but full of sorrow.
He smoothes over his dark suit nervously, unsure as to how to face the
wrath of this tiny whirlwind.
“My Mommy and Daddy are not mean. You are mean. Stop bothering me.
Go away. NOW!” Her voice rises with each word, until she’s shouting at him, her
cheeks flushed and her eyes nearly black with fury.
“They never hurt us!” she adds in a softer tone, the words broken by a sob,
before she rushes out.
The man in the suit thanks her grandma for their time, shaking her hand
and apologizing for upsetting the little girl. Then he turns to his partner, a man
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12. with a similar appearance but no fondness or sympathy for children. This man
had been ignored by the little girl during the entire meeting, as she’d heard him
telling her grandma that they didn’t want her seeing her mother or father.
“I think she made it pretty clear,” the nicer man says as they take their
leave.
Days go by, the funeral passing in a blur that she doesn’t even want to
remember. She cries almost constantly, wanting her brother back, wanting to see
her parents, wanting to know why God is being so mean. The days turn to months
before she’s allowed to live with her parents, only seeing them when supervised.
During this time, the only comfort to her is her dreams.
Every night, she experiences the same dream. A soft glowing white light
surrounds her, and soon enough she isn’t alone, but in the company of a beautiful
woman with long blond hair and comforting green eyes. This woman, however,
isn’t dressed in hot pink scrubs or bringing lollipops. A white dress that seems
to flow and flutter constantly covers her willowy form in a demure fashion, the
sleeves falling well past her hands. Large white wings sprout from her back, a
source of interest to the girl even though she understands what they mean. The
feathers ruffle occasionally, in response to some movement or action, creating a
comforting sound that soon becomes the little girl’s new version of her brother’s
laugh. And a thin ring of gold hovers above the woman’s head, glowing with the
same bright white light as everything else in this dreamscape. The woman brings
news, her voice somehow holding every happy memory the little girl has of her
brother. The news is always the same. Bubba is okay, he is happy; he is with
people that love him. He is not gone.
As much as the little girl may want to stay in this dream with this woman
who reminds her of happiness, she cannot. Soon enough, life returns to
happiness; though, there are moments of great sorrow. She returns to her parents.
She grows up. She never forgets the visitors of her youth: the nurse that told her
it was possible to like her brother; the man in the suit that tried to gain her trust,
simply so he could question her about her parents; and the angel that visited
her dreams to help her find closure. But most importantly, the adorable little
boy, who was the most amazing Bubba in the world, while he had the time to be,
the little boy that changed her life, and left a deep mark on her heart, soul, and
family.
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13. Not Ready to Leave Here
Cody Speed
Not Ready to Leave Here
Pen and Ink
8x11
Leaving behind someone you love.
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14. These Shoes
Belinda Barker
these shoes
never worn in my youth
stiff and unyielding
perched high on
their lofty place
waiting
these shoes
brought down with halting purpose
alien and new
beside a dress
the color of mourning
waiting
these shoes
creased with maps from my tears
scalloped and hot
fallen from downward eyes
that cannot turn away
waiting
these shoes
rediscovered
broken and pliant
hidden beneath the silent stories
of my life
waiting
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15. Tear Fall
Zacharia Dickson
Graphic Design
1384 X 3648 pixels
Represents the sadness of losing a loved one, through the heart of a grieving child.
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16. We Buried a Boy
Belinda Barker
we buried a boy today
a beautiful boy
the sound
of a mother’s silent mourning
the sound
of your own child’s grief
unimaginable sounds
unanswerable questions
unthinkable answers
the sound
of each heart rending
joining all the others
desperate to make sense
of the beautiful boy’s death
the sound
of young men in unison
their cadence crushed and strong
singing the swan song of the boy
the sound
of love
we buried a boy today
a beautiful boy
In loving memory of Jacob Cole Nunley (September 22,
1993--September 10, 2012)
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17. Drops of Jupiter
Cody Speed
Acrylic on canvas
20x16
Looking up and seeing the one you lost in the stars.
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18. Benefits
You sit across from me
and tell me about my retirement options.
Brittney Reed
Even you know this is ridiculous:
the tiny giggle bubbles from your lips
at the end of each sentence.
You were running late—
I’m twenty-three.
I must make you feel awkward.
You tell me about my new life
insurance policy, and I wonder if I died
how much money my parents would get,
if it would be enough for even one round
of my father’s chemo. If it could gather
each hair from his pillow, weave it into something
other than an empty bank account
and a line of zeros.
My face is pale but unfair, unlined.
They call me sweetie on the phone, ask for my superior.
The little I command is too much.
They want to know where I hide my incompetence.
I must keep it in my tiny pocket of years,
sewn into the hem of my thrift store skirt.
You push pages across your desk
and I sign each one with my name
but also with thank you,
with I’m sorry,
I don’t want this,
I have no place in my life to put it.
I don’t want this,
I have no place in my life to put it.
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20. The Calling
Mary Jean Hall
The Calling
Digital Photo
Capturing the beauty of nature.
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21. In God We Trust
It all seems the same Ashley Burton
Justification for a game
Reality for a peace
A color of a painting for which we might be
The same God in a different land
Holding the same hands
Leading people to understand
Yet you hate and migrate
And won’t seek face of
Anyone who looks differently
Than you
Who speaks with more slurs than you do?
And we sin and say only God can judge me
Like it is ok to be a slob of whom we teach not to be
It all seems the same
Justification for a game
Reality for a peace
A color of a painting for which we might be
Wars based on differences
And we neglect what is significant
For prized possessions that fade away
And say we want a piece of heaven
Yet don’t search for righteousness
Or pray to understand what needs to be understood
This is a land where people look at your shoes
Before they speak to you
And ask what you do
Instead of asking about you
It all seems the same
Justification for a game
Reality for a peace
A color of a painting for which we might be
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22. We base our trust in a government we distrust
And take from the poor
Knock if you may on murderers’ door
And we claim that every hard working person is evil
We belittle if they don’t meet the standards of everyone else
We have forgotten about the collective good
And only think about self
We say Amen
Although we don’t agree
We get on our knees to do everything but pray
So I say
It all seems the same
Justification for a game
Reality for a peace
A color of a painting for which we might be
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24. Wish Right Now
Cody Speed
Acrylic on canvas
20x16
Saying goodbye to all your dreams and wishing for a reprieve.
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25. A Sideways Glance
Kristin Brooks
Beth quietly retrieved her coffee from the counter of the coffee shop, and
retreated to a corner seat in the back of the supposedly warm, and welcom-
ing café. She couldn’t help but enjoy the warm rays of the sun that, regardless
of the bold orange blinds, seemed to be drawn to her like two magnets, that
had found themselves in the bottom of the cluttered kitchen ‘catch-all’ draw-
er. She seemed to be surrounded by warmth: the friendly waitress behind
the counter who had smiled, as she had unknowingly given her the incor-
rect change; the rays of sun passing through the windows; and the appealing
sideways glance of the handsome young gentlemen, sitting across from her
sipping, on what appeared to be a latte, covered in rich cream. Wait, this last
entry in the never-ending lists of her mind was one that had not been noticed,
or logged mentally, before. She found herself out of her comfort zone, being
one who usually melted, unnoticed into the scenery.
The man reminded her of Steven, her ex, who had broken her heart, just a few
months before. She had fallen in love with him, and the year that they had
been together, had been wonderful. Beth had always been a quiet person, who
never said much, and was always in the shadow of others. Steven had the un-
canny ability of making her forget about her self-conscious nature, and could
draw her out of herself enough, that she could enjoy life. She had finally
learned to trust him, and had started to picture their future together, just as
her world had come crashing down. He had sat her down at the kitchen table,
in the apartment that they shared, and bluntly told her that he had met some-
one else. He left shortly after that, and she hadn’t seen him since. This had
propelled her back deeper, into her painfully shy world of self-consciousness,
and withdrawal.
Seeing this man, Beth thought to herself, that maybe this was the start to
a new beginning, a second chance at a life with someone else. She held her
breath as the man smiled, rose to his feet, and started to make his way to
her table. Her heart fluttered, as his shiny black shoes waded through what
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26. had once been a cup of coffee strewn along the floor that had carelessly and in-
efficiently been cleaned up. Her mind flew to the possibilities of what he might
say to her, and what she could possibly say that would keep him from running in
the opposite direction. She always had been able to say just the wrong thing that
would cause a guy to quickly excuse himself, from her presence, but maybe she
had learned enough from Steven, to keep this guy from bolting.
He grew closer and closer, and time seemed to pass slower and slower. Time was
jolted into what seemed an endless Hades, as he passed by her and reached for
the decorative handle of the exit door, she had unknowingly placed herself be-
side, as she felt her hopes diminish and her dream for a normal life disappear,
along with the handsome stranger, around the bustling street corner.
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27. Sadness
Zachariah Dickson
Graphic Design
2265 X 7681 pixels
Emotions: meant to be seen, not held in and
thought on. 23
28. Gaze
Alexandra Stover
Watercolor (landscape) Acrylic (characters) on canvas
18x24
Putting my original characters in their natural environ-
ment for the first time.
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29. Wonder Lust
Rachel Hurst
I want to take this world
And crack it within these trembling hands.
I want to take it
And press its fractures to my lips
So that I can drink deeply of its
Wonders and secrets.
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30. Tree Woman Cries
Cody Speed
Graphic Design
2264 X 3046 pixels
Even when the world around you is beautiful, it does not make up
the grief within oneself.
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31. Colorful
Jami Miller
Blue lips, Red eyes
Violet patches on my skin
Reluctant apologies
Mean nothing when
Released from those lips
And then I hear him
Whisper “you are my favorite fragile thing”
And I am in love again.
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32. Dance It All Away
Beth Crocker
Permanent Marker and Sharpie
9x12
Expressing joy, youth, and freedom in the use of the figure and the
colors.
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33. The All Powerful Hairy Hand
Jonathan Lucas French
He was lying there in the rank smell of urine and shit, stiff, like a fish you
left in the back of a pickup too long on a hot day. With his pants and underwear
at his ankles it was almost surreal seeing him there, in the basement of the
church, where my family knelt and prayed, sang and danced. With an open mouth
and eyes wide open, stuck, frozen in time, his face was mashed against the cold
cement floor. It was so much to take in, standing there seeing him. I didn’t dare
move nor make a sound. I just stood and stared, listening to the music and the
people I knew to be good, dancing and celebrating Jesus in all His glory, in the
sanctuary above.
It was Willard, the retarded boy, who didn’t like to be touched by anyone
he didn’t know. He was Mrs. Dowdy’s grandson and she had taken him to every
church service I ever been to. His beard was one of wonder, one that could never
be groomed, due to his erratic violent movements. He sat often in front of me
and my family, and I would peer at him and ponder as to what he was thinking,
as he moved his head as if flies were all about. He was unique, gray haired at an
early age, with yellow and black teeth that were usually clenched. He had aged
eyes that seemed to look beyond this world and into another. I admired him,
admired his blood vessels that ran wild, standing out on his arms like markings
on a map. I admired his strength for throwing people about when they would try
to place hands on him. He was almost a super hero in slacks, Willard, the retard.
Now he was beneath me, dead in a puddle of his own piss, with people dancing
above unbeknownst to his new form.
A hand was placed on my shoulder, coming from nowhere, startling me,
almost like it was a hand of God himself. It was Brother Rick, dressed in black as
always, holding me, reassuring me. Standing there we looked at poor Willard.
“Dear Lord, what in the world was he doing?” Brother Rick said calmly,
clenching me close, my elbow at his waist.
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34. Staring at Willard, it was a thought, his words, though none of real reason.
I was young and knew not a lot, but I knew it wasn’t what Willard was doing,
rather what had been done to him. With tears in my eyes waiting to fall, my
body tensed up with every movement of Brother Rick’s big hairy hand, working
its way up my neck, as I looked at the last of my mindless super hero. I thought
I was special. I thought I was the only one. I thought if I could’ve been Willard,
I would’ve been strong enough, mindless enough, to fight back; I wasn’t, and
neither was he.
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36. The Question
Cody Jarman
This is not a poem
nor is it a short story
nor a play
nor a dance, painting, or sculpture
It is present merely to raise the question
Just like you or I
The universe is wide
it is an eternally silent plane
but if a being gives a voice to the void
is that not meaning enough?
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37. Waterland
Zachariah Dickson
Graphic Design
1930 X 3804 pixels
Showing the fluidity of both ocean creatures and humanity, and our ability to change and
warp to the changing of the world.
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38. Blooming with Hue
Jocelyne Barchet
Acrylic Paint
18x24
Showing a full spectrum of color centered on flowers.
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39. Looking up the Eiffel at Night
Kara Kidwell
Digital Photo
4320 x 3240 pixels
Showing an angle of the Eiffel Tower that is not normally seen.
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40. Abstract Painting
Lauren Suiter
Acrylic on canvas
11X14
An abstract piece that contains no recognizable forms yet depicts an overall happy mood.
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41. Center
Melanie O’Neil
Photograph
Capturing the beauty of Mother Nature.
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42. Wine Bottle
Aaron Burks
Charcoal on Paper
18x24
A study of still life with light, shadow and tone.
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43. Alone at Last
Megan Schwab
Oil on Canvas
28x 22
Endeavoring with oil paints for the first time.
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44. Curious Aquarium
Jocelyne Barchet
Pastels
11x14
Representing the curiosity of a young person’s mind.
(Notice the child in the bottom-left corner)
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45. Nighttime
Melanie O’Neil
Photograph
Showing how bright the world can be at night.
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46. Ephemera
Brittney Reed
I find my pleasure in cheap things meant to be taken off
like the leopard-print slip that slides
over the cleft between thighs
with a purring, symphony of zippers
meant to be thrown away
the books never made for top billing on any shelf
paperbacks born to die kicked under beds
pages still sticky with cherry soda and lust
to be tossed aside
the thin edge of night and morning
when another cigarette forever is never the last
and the car tires binge-eat asphalt
like they’re looking for love at the bottom of the cookie jar
made cheap and easy
the lucky can buy happiness from gumball machines,
find it in lipstick, unicorn pink
glitter stickers on early ‘90s trapper keepers
both trashy and inane
arraying selves in junk,
building lives out of cast-offs from the bottom of the drawer,
lighting blonde Jesus candles while radio starlets gyrate
on tarnished silver screens
They wouldn’t call it tacky if it didn’t stick in your heart.
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47. Gilt and Crystal at the Louvre
Kara Kidwell
Digital Photography
4320 x 3240 pixels
Showing a chandelier from another angle.
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48. A Modern Pyramus and Thisbe
Misty Dunlap
I am having a love affair between the walls
knock once for are you there
knock twice with a long pause in between for I want to kiss you
knock three times for reassurance that everything will be okay
we will not wake up in ten years to find we still have not
taken that road trip or won a Nobel Prize
we sleep as close as we can to our shared wall
backs pressed, ribs uncurled
a knuckle running against the eggshell white paint
as if the color was the soft crook of an elbow
whisper all your fears, regrets, plans, likes
I will keep an empty tumbler on my windowsill
ready to listen
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50. Blackhole Sun
Zach Johnson
Charcoal on Drawing Paper
9x12
Realizing an idea.
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51. Rotting Teeth
Rachel Hurst
His fingers sailed across the decaying teeth, lithe and caressing. Each one
gave in to his touch hesitantly, and whispered music between the trees and
the moonlight. Melodies soared into the night, carried on his breath with each
slow exhale. Around him the world hushed. No cry of the birds were heard, no
movement of the wind called. All the sounds of the night fell quiet in the presence
of him and the long forgotten instrument. The stars, as well, took a step back at
the show of his hands’ gentle play.
Sour wood permeated the air and foliage spilt forth from its core. The feel
of the ruts and scars marred along the keys matched his own on the curve of his
lip and those along the delicate lining of her heart. It was an outcast to its owner,
just as the girl with shaking hands was to the lover before him. Each groan of an
unyielding chord struck him, just as the hardness in her words would. Despite
its quiet beauty, abuse had left its scoring mark on the piano, leaving its spirit
broken for nature to take back into its bosom. No amount of skill would again
beckon its beautiful language. Its love cast away from its owner, just as his
beloved had been. No, neither the piano nor the girl would sing for him, as they
had for those that touched them before. But still he would remain.
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52. Oil
Alexandra Stover
Oil painting on canvas
Being striking and complimentary of the colors within it while remaining loose.
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53. The Gremlin of All Hallow’s Eve
Eli Anderson
I tell you now of a beast of old
Who walked the earth with courage bold.
Listen close with fervid ear
And lean in close so you may hear.
He walked these hills, these plains, these woods
And even terrorized our neighborhoods.
His figure is ghastly, his spirit you’ll feel
And his presence alone will make grown men squeal.
His long lanky limbs leave no print in the earth
And he is ghoulishly misshapen for lack of girth.
He prowls the night with malice entail
And he uses the land for his shadowy veil.
His hair hangs long from all four limbs
And cursed be the soul that catches a glimpse.
His long ivory claws stay sharp from use
And from them he learned to deal man abuse.
His large sunken eyes can be spotted at night,
They’ve been known to emit a ghoulish green light.
Do not be fooled, he is no boorish brute
His mind is as sharp as yours and mine to boot.
He is often seen tracing the water’s edge
And is occasionally spotted peering from a mountain ledge.
We know not where he next will creep
But we know that he can never sleep.
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54. Into the Dark
Cody Speed
Pen and Ink
8x11
Facing the darkness and pain is always better with a friend.
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55. Should I Do This?
Regan Ward
Should I do this? What if I’m gonna regret this? John’s pale face feels like it is
gradually beginning to sizzle under the scrutiny of the sun’s rays. Kate draws
his attention, away from deep thoughts, with the breathless sigh to his right that
brings goose bumps to every inch of his skin. He is so warm and so cold; he is
incredibly confused but also absolutely sure. Her freckled collarbones slowly rise
as the small bits of pollen around her face rush to her pink, slender nose. A few
strands of pumpernickel-colored hair slide elegantly across her high cheekbone
and strong jaw line, as she tilts her closed emerald eyes towards him.
“What?” she says.
“What ‘what’?”
“You’re staring at me. You can’t hide it from me anymore, ya know?”
“So, you can just sense that now or something?”
“Yeah, pretty much. Ever since high school,” she says.
“Ah, yes, Arlington High. How you loved that place.”
“Oh, hush. It’s not like you were having the time of your life either.”
“I started to, senior year.”
“Now you’re just sucking up.”
“No really. Just like right then; your giggle always made French easier.”
“Weren’t you just blessed the only seat open was right in front of you, then?”
“Nah, first thing that came to mind was, ‘Ew, freshman.’”
“Don’t even pretend. I knew what you were thinking the first day of freshman
year.”
“You’re weird.”
“You’re the one staring.”
“True.”
“So?”
“It’s nothing. You just look relaxed is all.”
“Wow.”
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56. “Huh?”
“You suck at lying, even with my eyes closed.”
“I thought you were sleeping, so I was going to play a prank on you.”
“Really? What prank was that?”
“No, I’ll just save it for later,” he says.
“You weren’t going to play a prank.”
“You can wipe that little smirk off your face, smart butt. I did have a prank.”
“Then do it. I still have my eyes closed, don’t I?”
“You won’t like it.”
“Isn’t that the point of a prank?”
“Not my prank.”
“Then why don’t you do it?”
“Maybe, I will.”
“You’re too careful about things. You need to buck up, Mister.”
“You pick on me now, but wouldn’t you want any boy to be careful with you?”
“I’m not pickin’ too bad. And, of course I would, but you’re different.”
“You don’t want me to be careful?”
“No, you just aren’t anywhere near normal.”
“Aren’t we just a pair then?”
“I don’t want you to feel like you have to be. I mean, come on, we’ve known each
other for about seven years now, right? If I haven’t decided by now that I hate
your guts, when will I ever?”
“True.”
“Seriously, John, I’m only kidding. What is it? You looked like you were about to
be sick… but just now you look like you could up and kiss that frog sitting by that
half-sunk log over there. What is up with you today?”
“I just wanted to ask you something.”
“And that’s your prank or…”
“Yeah, kind of.”
“So, what is it?”
“You’re kinda cute, you know that?”
“Do what now?”
“Will you marry me?”
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57. “You are a jerk.”
“What?”
“You do not ask a girl to marry you as a prank, if you want to live to see the
mornin’ after.”
“Sorry, I didn’t think it would bother you.”
“It didn’t.”
“Liar.”
“Hey, I do have a real question for you, though.”
“What’s that?”
“Wanna propose to me?”
“I just did.”
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58. The Companion
Diane Shaw
Acrylic on Paper
14 x 21
Signifying the universal behavior pattern for those who have the ability to be a loyal
companion without the need to be self-serving.
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59. The Shakes
Toshya Leonard
All of the fine China
Has been put away
Since the fateful hour
Grandpa got the shakes.
Grandma took out the TV
And the garbage too,
But judging by her expression,
It didn’t do much good.
There Grandpa sits talking
To all of no audience,
And all the doctors can prescribe
Is a dose of plenty patience.
As Grandma’s wrinkles grow,
Grandpa’s condition stays the same.
The pills; the drugs; the war; the Man;
Those are who to blame.
He can remember the past
As clear as the blue sky,
And all Grandma can do
Is sit back in her rocker and cry.
Grandpa hasn’t been his best
Since April of 1965.
Grandma is out of mind,
But at the same, still alive.
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60. Grandpa talks about the bombs
And when the missiles flew,
But ask him about the kids,
And he doesn’t have a clue.
He still yells into his pillow
And cannot help but weep.
It’s probably been a thousand nights
Since Grandma’s gotten any sleep.
It’s not that she doesn’t care;
It’s that she cares too much.
No offense to God,
But her prayers haven’t had luck.
Grandma just wants company,
For she can’t drink coffee alone,
But it would be just as easy
To send Grandpa off to “the home.”
Grandma understands that age
Is a force that you can’t fight,
And with it comes rage,
Which Grandpa fights every night.
Grandma still claims
That Grandpa’s love is there.
Even if they are crazy together,
It’s a love that they still share.
All of the fine China
Is still put away,
But Grandma remains
With Grandpa and his shakes.
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61. Tilted, Twisted, and Worn
Donna Hacker
Digital Photo
Capturing the early morning light that is reflecting on this quirky old rugged white picket
fence.
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62. Family Photographs
Belinda Barker
heart falling first
mind scrambling behind
searching for a hold
to recapture the snapshot
before this flash in time
family photographs
never taken
forgotten to be forgotten
in the space not yet awake and not yet sleeping even there and even then
they awake in dreams
of muscles reenacting the slow motions
plummeting down into the darkest room
where a stopped heart must remember how to beat
and a body so plagued with weariness
leaves a spirit whose brokenness is its only beauty
family photographs
never displayed
forgotten to be forgotten
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63. Wonderland
Zachariah Dickson
Graphic Design
632 X 2616 pixels
Giving the viewer a new reflection beyond the looking glass.
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64. Feather Stone
Cody Speed
Clay/Metal/Feathers
19x22
The higher and brighter the feathers, the closer to the spirits you are. Influenced by African
masks.
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65. Road to Recovery
Rocky Holland
Russell Russo was a compulsive gambler. Compulsive was a nice way of putting it.
Russell needed to feel the exciting rush of betting like a drug addict, needed to feel the high of
premium heroin. Lady Luck is a bipolar wasp, uncertain, untrustworthy, and ready to strike at
any moment. Russell had been in recovery for half a year. It had been six months since his last
paycheck was blown, his last bill went unpaid and his last relative had cut him off.
Russell had stopped at Dave’s Gas and Grubb to fill his tank after work. There appeared
to be only one clerk working behind the counter and Russell stood at the end of a long line of
rush hour customers. The clerk was overwhelmed and the customers were becoming agitated.
Russell glanced around the store as he waited, and his eyes came to a flashy purple sign with
silver stars, advertising the state lottery. There was a new scratch off game available, Red Hot
25’s,and the sign informed him, that he could win twenty-five hundred dollars every week, for
life. He imagined what it would be like to hit that jackpot. He imagined walking into work the
next day and telling his boss to piss off; being able to retire early and spend the rest of his days
relaxing. He thought of what it would be like to pay off all his loans, the student loans, as well
as, the gambling loans. He could have it all, for just the minor, tiny, insignificant, short-term
investment of five dollars out of pocket.
“Next!” the store clerk said, waking Russell from his daydream.
“Pump number three, pack of Marlboro Lights…and a Red Hot 25, please.” Russell
told himself not to feel guilty. It was only five dollars; besides, the money went towards college
scholarships and new roads. All he had done was donate five dollars to a good cause. This
was not a big deal.
Russell took a quarter from his pocket and began to scratch the lottery ticket. He
absolutely hated scratching tickets one play at a time; he always scratched the entire ticket all
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66. at once and looked for the winning numbers after. Russell’s heart dropped to his stomach, as
he saw a flaming twenty-five appear. He looked across to the prizes: free ticket. Russell was
glad he wasn’t walking away empty handed. It was like he had gotten two tickets for the price
of one, which made the five dollar investment, worth it in his mind.
He scratched ticket number two. That one was a bust. Russell discarded the ticket into
the trash. He started to walk out of the convenience store, while thinking: If the odds are one in
three, then one of the next two tickets could possibly have a cash prize, right? Russell busted
on the next two tickets he purchased. Thinking that the roll of tickets was bound to pay off at
some point, now more than ever, he bought two more.
“Hot damn!” Russell said, as he finally hit fifteen dollars.
“Would you like to keep playing or do you want the cash?” the clerk asked him.
Russell heard his next words, as if he were having an out of body experience. His
conscience was screaming at him from some far off distant land, but it was too late; the
warning had fallen upon deaf ears, and he lost complete control. “I want a Lucky Horseshoe,
Outstanding Aces, Quick $50, 10x The Money, Bingo, Cool Dice, Platinum Diamonds, Cent of
Cash, Dazzling 7’s, Flaming Cherries, Hot Slots and Crazy Eights.”
“Anything else?” the clerk asked, indifferently.
“A one dollar quick pick for the Cash 4 evening drawing, any order.” Russell placed his
Cash 4 ticket in his wallet, took a seat at the small table in the back of the store and began to
scratch.
Thirty minutes later Russell heard himself telling the clerk, “This is my last round and
then I’m done.” Fifteen minutes after that, he said, “A few more, then I’ve got to go.” Finally, the
rush started to wear off and the guilt started to set in. Russell’s conscience had caught up with
him. After two hours, Russell had lost close to two hundred dollars, including the money from
the handful of times he had won.
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67. Russell sat in his Nissan Civic staring at a picture of his wife, Renee, and his three
children. He kept a photograph of his family taped to his dashboard, his motivation. It had done
him no good, today. He was going to have to go home and tell his wife where the two hundred
dollars had gone. He imagined sitting down at the kitchen table, and telling her; which, would
be followed by the unbearable conversation that was sure to come after. He could already see
the hurt and disappointment in her eyes, the worst part of it all. That, however, was a situation
he’d had to deal with, time and time again in the past. Tonight, there would be a new one. He’d
have to tell his three sons, that they would not be going to the ballpark this weekend. It would
have been his youngest son’s first time seeing a live major league game.
It wasn’t unusual for Russell to work late, every so often. His boss wasn’t stingy about
over-time, during the busy season. He called Renee, to tell her that he’d be coming home late.
The lie seemed insignificant, compared to what he’d inevitably be telling her, later that night.
His hope was that he could stop off for a night cap first, and stay out just long enough to return,
when his boys had gone to bed.
He stopped at his usual drinking spot, Tessa’s Bar and Grill. He walked in, loosened his
tie, took a seat on a small brown leather stool, and noticed a video poker machine, three stools
down from him, sitting at the end of the bar.
“What the hell,” he said. He fed the machine a dollar and began to play. He didn’t get
the same kind of rush playing the video poker machine, as he got playing the scratch cards;
the machine didn’t pay out in anything but points, and if you were lucky, your name on the high
score screen.
“Looks like someone’s off the wagon,” said Tessa, as she sat down onto the stool next
to him.
“I don’t really want to talk about it, Tess,” he replied.
Russell and Renee had gone to college with Tessa. He and Tessa had even dated
briefly. Renee had been Tessa’s roommate, which, was how Russell had initially been
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68. introduced to her. Tessa had kept in touch with them since graduation and remained a close
friend of the family. It was in college that Russell first discovered the joys and sorrows of his
gambling addiction. He had taken up sports betting, and it had gotten serious, when he’d lost
a substantial amount of his student loan. Luckily, Tessa had taken pity on him, and leant him
the money, that allowed him to pay for the expenses of his final semester. Now, all these years
later, when things went wrong he still went to her and spilled his woes over a cold drink. Tessa
was a very caring person, his best friend.
“How much are you out?” she asked.
“Two,” he said, staring at the video poker game.
“That’s not so bad, Russ. At least, it’s not like your trip to Reno.”
“Tell that to Renee,” Russell said, as he put another dollar into the machine.
“She’s very understanding, Russell. You know that. You’re sick, and you’ve been
working hard, to overcome this thing. No one’s going to fault you, for a small relapse, this
soon.”
“It’s been six months, Tess,” Russell said, looking at her now. “Christ, I was supposed
to take my boys to the game tomorrow, and now I have to tell them, we can’t go, because their
daddy’s a screw up. I picked a hell of a week to relapse.” Russell had tears and frustration in
his eyes.
Tessa placed her hand on his shoulder, and said “You’re, not a screw up. You’re,
human. You put your pants on, one leg at a time, like the rest of us. Is there anything I can do,
to help? Would you like me, to talk to Renee?”
“Can you lend me two hundred dollars?” Russell asked. It pained him more than
anything, to hit people up for money to cover his gambling losses, but it never stopped him
from doing it. His pride never mattered, as much as, the shame he felt from not being able to
conceal what he’d done, from his family.
“Do I really need to answer that?” Tessa said, sounding a little more hostile, than she’d
intended. “You know I promised, not to enable you.”
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69. “I know. you, and everyone else who matters. How about a rum and Coke then?”
Tessa stepped behind the bar and prepared his drink, giving him a double shot of rum,
but only charging him regular price. She leaned against the counter and watched the broken
gambler play video poker, biting her lip and wanting to do something to help him. An idea
popped into her head, and she grabbed a cocktail napkin and pen. She jotted down a name
and address, and slid the napkin in front of Russell.
“What’s this?” he asked.
“I’ll make a long story short,” she began. “I let a guy I was dating run up a tab in here,
a little over a thousand dollars, and we had a falling out, last month. He never came back to
pay it. I told him I’d involve the authorities and we agreed to settle it for five hundred. I was
supposed to pick up the money at his place, after work tonight; you do it, and you can keep
two hundred of it.”
“Tessa, no, I…”
“You’d be doing me a great favor, Russell. I really don’t want to see him again. This isn’t
me enabling you; this is me paying you to do a job. What do you say?”
“I don’t know what to say. I promise I’ll repay you.”
“Just promise me you’ll stick with the therapy, Russell. You can beat this thing. I
know you can. You take your boys to the baseball game and have a great time. Remember,
they’re depending on you to get well.”
Russell thanked her and hurried to his car. Once again he’d been in a bind and Tessa
had bailed him out. But he really would pay her back this time, and he was more determined
than ever, to control his vice. This time, he’d let his addiction hurt not only him and Renee, but
his boys. Russell truly believed he could be better than that. He was going to do right by his
family and was going to do right by his overly generous friend.
His car came to a stop, in the driveway of 566 Memorial Street. He glanced at the
picture of his family on the dash, as he pulled the napkin from his pocket. The guy’s name
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70. was Brian. Russell walked across a gravel driveway, to a white two-story house with a long
wooden porch on the front of it. He thought it was a gorgeous place; had a well-kept lawn, two
car garage, garden, and a porch swing. It was a nice little slice of the American dream; like
something out of a magazine.
He rang the doorbell, and a short moment later it was answered by a large, gruff,
unshaven man wearing a polo shirt and khaki shorts. The man had anger in his eyes, and
Russell wondered for a second if this had been a good idea. Brian was built like a professional
football player, and Russell could smell whiskey on his breath.
“Who the hell are you?” Brian asked.
“I’m a…uh…coworker of Tessa’s. She sent me to pick up the money.”
“You work for Tessa?” Brian asked, looking Russell up and down.
“That’s right.”
“How come I’ve never seen you in there before?”
“Just started; got hired on as a floor bouncer,” Russell said, hoping to end this encounter
quickly.
Brian snickered at Russell and began to laugh at him. “You’re a bouncer? You always
wear a suit and tie to work?”
“When it’s appropriate,” Russell said, feeling foolish now.
“So, were you supposed to come over here and rough me up for the rest of the money,
Mr. Floor Bouncer?”
“Just what was agreed on.” Russell was getting extremely uncomfortable, now. He
thought once or twice of turning around and bolting back to his car. He wished Brian would just
shut up and give him the money.
“So, you’re here to rough me up, for what was agreed upon?”
Good God! Russell thought to himself. The situation was turning ugly fast. “Look, I’m
just here to pick up the five hundred. I’m not looking for any trouble.”
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71. Brian stepped closer to Russell, chest to chest with him, staring into his eyes and sizing
him up. Russell tried to look away and was almost sure, he was about to get punched in the
face.
“Wait here,” Brian said and went back into the house.
“Thank you,” Russell muttered under his breath, relieved not to be lying on the ground,
with a broken nose.
Brain returned to the door, holding a Mossberg 12 gauge pump action shotgun, with
pistol grip across his chest. “I don’t know what kind of crap Tessa is trying to pull, but you can
tell her, if she wants the money, she can take me to court. Now, get the hell off my porch.”
Russell hadn’t even waited for Brain to finish his last sentence, before he’d turned
around, and sprinted back to his car. When he’d put enough distance between himself and
the house, he pulled off the road and tried to get his breathing under control. He thought for
a second, he might have been having a heart attack, but as the adrenalin started to wear off,
he caught his breath and calmed his nerves. Russell looked at the picture of his family and
slammed his fists onto the steering wheel. He was back to square one. He was going to have
to go home, and tell his wife, he’d lost the money, and tell his boys, that they’d be watching the
game in the living room on the flat screen. And now, he’d messed things up for Tessa, as well.
Russell decided to head home, and get it over with.
He started the car and turned the volume up on the radio, to try and concentrate on
something, other than what he was about to face. He caught the tail end of some new rock
song, and as it faded out, the DJ announced, “Up next, we’ll have tonight’s winning lottery
numbers.” Russell suddenly remembered the Cash 4 ticket he’d purchased earlier and quickly
dug it out of his wallet. He listened as the DJ read through the Powerball and Cash 3 drawings.
“Now for your Cash 4 evening drawing, the numbers are: Three, four, three, and three.”
Russell looked at the ticket, and his adrenaline was suddenly pumping, as it had when
the crazy man had been threatening him, with a shotgun. Lady Luck had stung him, and he
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72. could feel the poison entering his veins. The numbers on Russell’s ticket read: 3; 3; 4; and 3.
Russell tried to remember the jackpot for three identical digits, in any order.
He pulled into the closest gas station, and asked the clerk to tell him what his ticket
paid out. She ran his ticket through the lotto machine, and on the electronic display appeared:
WINNER! $1,200! Russell couldn’t believe it. As the clerk handed him back his ticket, he found
himself, once again tempted by the scratch-offs. He had extra cash now, more than enough for
a couple of go-rounds; perhaps, a quick trip to the casino, instead.
Russell thought of his family. He thought of his wife, Renee. He remembered his boys
and the game tomorrow. He pictured Tessa standing behind the bar, with the sad pitiful look
on her face, and the offer to bail him out, again. He thought of all the people who meant
something to him, turned around, and walked out of the store.
The next day, he would give Tessa one thousand dollars, and tell her Brian had come
to his senses, and decided to settle things evenly. He would take his boys to the ballpark and
put the remaining two hundred to use on hotdogs, sodas, and souvenirs. On Tuesday night,
the next week, he would go to his gamblers anonymous group therapy session, discuss his
relapse, and begin his journey once again, on the long road to recovery.
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73. Deadly Substance
Jocelyne Barchet
Charcoal
18x24
Looking through the eyes of the artist while sketching.
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74. 12:30
Aaron Burks
Charcoal on Paper
18x24
A study of still life with light, shadow and tone.
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75. Please, Professor
Kathleen Alford
Oh please, professor, please shut up,
My head, my brain is stuffed, full up,
I know I need to pay attention,
But my mind’s gone past all redemption,
So please, professor, please shut up.
It’s not that I don’t want to learn,
It’s not that this class I spurn,
It’s just that I’ve my focus lost,
And I know not listening will cost,
So please, professor, please shut up.
I hear you speak, but nothing stays,
I know my eyes have got that glaze,
I’m sorry I don’t seem to care,
About the things you’ve got to share,
But please, professor, please shut up.
Cut class short, just this once,
I feel like such a royal dunce,
The others seem to feel the same,
Heads ducked low in tired shame,
Oh please, professor, please shut up.
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76. My hand is cramped, my eyes have crossed,
My foot’s asleep and I’m plumb lost,
Oh please, oh please, oh please dear prof.,
Let us have just an hour off,
Please, professor, please shut up.
Please professor, don’t be sad,
And please don’t let us make you mad,
It’s not that we don’t care – we do!
We just need some time to renew,
So please, professor, just – please shut up.
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77. Timeless
Kait Scott
Timeless
Digital Photography
Documenting the passage of time.
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